my own twilight saga...

why am i still holding on to him?

still xley let go..

bukan sebulan bukan setahun..

years after years...

every month waiting for his call..

kadang-kadang rase sesak,pedih,sakit..

tapi hati ni cepat sejuk untuk die..

untuk die je..

orang laen no way..

kadang-kadang rase nyampah,marah,sakit ati tengok die,

tapi tak pe coz konon he's my edward..

konon je la..

no edward-like qualities pon.

fly me to the tree-top,fight the tracker for me,sing a lullaby for me?

jangan harap.

but he is still my edward..

and im still his bella wannabe..

munafik?

i had this conversation with my senior.it was a joke actually.not the real serious talk pon.tapi after this conversation it semmed that in not on the right track of life.am i?

'kenape orang kaya selalu anak sikit?kenapa orang susah selalu anak ramai?'
'sebab orang susah tu dapat lagi banyak rezeki than orang kaya tu'
'tapi bukan ke kalau anak ramai tu cam menyusahkan?cause banyak bende nak beli yada3'
'tu view orang yang tak beriman dan tak de takwa.akak bukan cakap bie cam tu.'

subhanallah.am i?memang la die cakap bukan cakap i cam tu.tapi it's obvious la kan.never thot of that this way.she said that anak is anugerah Allah.yes i know that.and giving away the anak to someone else is a sin coz the father neglected his responsibility to take care of the child.memang la.tapi bukan ke die gave anak die to someone else for the sake of the child jugak.like he wants the best for she/he.dats my view for all this while.like if da hidop merempat,nak makan pakai tak cukup,it's better to give the child to someone who's capable to look after him kan than watching he lived his life dengan kedaifan and belajar tak habis,makan tak cukup.i didnt know that wanting the best for your child is a sin.it's better la to give away the child dari budak tu kene jadi pengemis and so on.


ps:forgive me if im wrong.lead me if im astray.mungkin aku jahil.mungkin aku pendek akal.but i dont think dats the way to educate kami yang jahil.

rapikan sulung 2009...

it's 10th jan and this is my first post for 2009.it's my second actually tapi dah bangang sangat set time zone xbetol so jadi la my post on 31st dec tu on 30th dec yada3.sudah lame tidak memblog.why?coz i've been extremely very ultra busy for this new sem.argh.3 subjects with 21 contact hours.campur 4 hours of internal course.campur mandarin classes every monday and wednesday lagi.owh bila mase daku mau berdansa di awan biru?mau menyanyi same burung?and we are not talking bout my long-hours-tido-mati,mengumpat mencari info,berjalan-jalan bersame skandals yet.i dont have time even for myself.yet alone to update this blog.so all my stalkers(like i have one),u need to find another method to know wat im up to okeh.lol.

guess im officially a wonderwoman now.pffft.