ASShole

i was woken up this morning by yaza.Jerit-jerit.Muke nak nanges.Why?What happened..

'Ade orang kene rogol kat seroja 2.5.30 pagi tadi.'

Ya allah.It could easily be me.I stayed up all night yesterday.Dalam 4 kali gak la gi toilet sorang-sorang.Dengan bilik bawah sekali,hujung sekali,tepi tu padang.Memang im an easy target.Bukan setakat easy.Memang he'll hit the bullseye la.

Nak rogol pon beragak la.Jangan la sampai jolok bende laen-m not sure if this true or not.Tapi this is wat i've heard.Hopefully not.Seyesly im not ok now.Just thinking that it might be me memang horrifying.Plus last nite kitorang xkunci pintu.Omg.Ya allah,memang naseb baek gile.Dah la tepi my bed kosong.Memang cam offer je kat die.

Tadi kitorang borak dengan mak cik cleaner.And she confirmed it.Yang xley blah that guy nyamar jadi pempuan.All of his so called camouflage tu ade lagi kat level 3.That gurl nak mandi je.Dah la subuh-subuh.Tak paham la orang camni.Sanggup tu susah payah menyamar.I hope u'll rot in hell with ur balls in ur mouth.Tak pun let someone else rape him.But how?Lol.So i tink its better we tortured him dengan keep replaying wat has he done today.Lagi seksa.

And i cant understand orang yang ade kat c2 dat time.Kenape tak tolong.I know maybe takot and all.Call la someone.Takpun korang pergi la ramai-ramai.Tapi tak ley salahkan diorang gak kan.Who knows ape kite rase if betol-betol jadi depan kite.Tapi xley trime kot nape diorang tak pegi tolong.




Argh~~

i.hate.me.

his not mine and im not his.tapi cukup cam couple kot.sume bende nak report.'u da bngun?'.'u da makan?'.bla3.kadang rimas gak.tapi kadang kadang rase amat comeyl gitu.lol.forgive my gersangness.hehe.9 months being single is an achievement for me kayh.SANGAT.HEBAT.But i hate this me and him thing.Taknak la both too attached to each other.What if someone jumpe orang laen.I don't wanna be hurt and i don't want to hurt him.Mintak jauh la.Btw apik keep insisting me to get rid of this guy.Yela2.Later i'll think bout it.Not now kayh..







ps:i.still.hate.smokers.nothing.can.make.me.change.my.mind.

mengidam.nasik.kandar.

11 am
'ain,jom kite g pelita'
'jom2 aku pon lame dh nk minum air nyo'
'nanti aku ajak yaza'
'kol bape nak g?'
'after asar la'
'k2'

4.45pm
'ain hujan ni..gano??'
'xpe2,kite tngu sejam lagi.Mesti stop'
'Tapi macam xsey stop jah tu'
'Memang pon'


6.15 pm
'bie,ujan stop dah la..jom la'
'yaza bangun weh.jom gi pelita'
'argh,besnye tido'
'bangun la wey,ciap2'
'k2'

6.20 pm-tunggu bus depan seroja.Owsh ramainye orang.Tunggu.Tunggu.Tunggu.Mane bus ni?

6.45 pm-Cik bus tidak lagi muncul.'mEh la kite jalan kaki gi sect2'.'ok'

6.50 pm-Sampai sect 2.kejar bus 602.Xsempat.Tunggu bus laen.Tunggu.Tunggu.Eh ade bus kat depan.
'Cik tu bus ape?'
'Bus rapid'
Argh~tension.

7.00 pm-Nak amek cab.Tapi sume tanak anta.Strategi menghantar yaza untuk tanye cab tak laku.Sume orang xnak.Siot.Azan maghrib.

7.05 pm-Muke hampa.Makan kat ani sup je.

7.45 pm-Balek jalan kaki.'Eh,cepatnye korang balek'.'S.I.O.T'






Kelaparanku seharian tak worth it.

exam.final.acca.argh~

Slept at 5 semalam.Penat sangat now.Makin banyak belajar makin banyak tataw.Cuak sangat-sangat.Mintak-mintak all this hardwork paid off.Tapi xde la hardwork sangat coz 1 week before exam baru nak start busting my arse off.Haiyoo bie.Dah la last weekend boley lagi ronggeng same pise,soba and diyana.Tapi xpe la.Kire my last day out la tu.Plus da lame xjumpe budak-budak gedik itu.Heartz them.Now bie is all about study medy.No more maen-maen eh babe.

kami bercengkarama~

i love dis pic...

Herm,my fren's dad meninggal on saturday.Sedih sangat.Muda lagi ayah die.Kene denggi and paru-paru berair.Dah ajal tak ley lari kan.Mude ke tue sume same je.Hopefully she'll be ok.Dengan final dah nak dekat nie.Al-fatihah for him.






ps:he said that he's a new man aftr knowing me...awww~

goodbye my lover...

Waaaaa~He left me.He freaking left me for an indon.Ape yang die ade ash?Name pon bunga cinta lestari.My name is way better okeh.Senang je nak sebut time akad.Name die bebelit kot lidah nak sebut.I hate her.Not because u've married her.Tapi because she is BUNGA.Nyanyi pon tah pape.I wonder why indonesians are soooooo deaf. TAK.BEST. Nyanyi pon cam cakap je.High note sure tak sampai la.Why do u called yourself a singer eh?Elysha pon boley nyanyi better than you taw.Just because ur an artist u can get him easily la.If u aren't ash sure xpandang pon la.

aS for u ash,i've been loyal for this past 5 years.U kissed her in bali pon i still support u taw.Yet u still wanna marry her??????Well babe,it's your loss.Hilang sudah 1 jejaka idaman malaya.Sedeyh kot tadi tengok melodi.U guys slow danced and ciap nyanyi same lagi.It should have been u and me.Not u and that woman.ME AND U.

I HATE YOU BUNGA....

*mourning.away*

i'll stay...

Sounds straight from the twilight
Has me up all night
I can’tFall asleep coz
I keep thinking of you
And I saw a shadow, outside my window
And it’s you!

All my sorrows flew away,
Hush keep quiet hear me say
I don’t ever want you to go
Please stay
With the moonlight dancing free
And there’s no one but you and me
There’s no reason to go astray
Please stay

Making up a story
It’s the way you’re looking at me
If you think that this is funny
It’s just you
Try and think about it
If your heart is closed don’t lock it
Keep your keys back in your pocket, think this through

All my sorrows flew away,
Hush keep quiet hear me say
I don’t ever want you to go
Please stayWith the moonlight dancing free
And there’s no one but you and me
There’s no reason to go astray
Please stay

bie=GRUMPY

Bie amat baek.seyesly.
but if u make bie marah she will be REAL mad.
No one wants to see bie marah rite?With her mucum and muke masam tuh.
Bie pon dowan to see herself gitu.
Tapi too bad babe.U wake up the dragon in me.
Sape suruh kurang ajar sangat.
I should have slapped ur face and simbah air.Simbah asid pon better.
Sukeati je nak kutuk orang.Im a lady for god's sake.
And ur putting the blame on me coz of that?
Tak kan la to be a good woman we have to wear jubah and purdah all the time.24/7?
U try it then.
Semayang jumaat pon banyak alasan.
It's not dat i dedah sane dedah sini.
Properly covered up okeh.
Why don't u save that to someone yang memang sexy?

tengah.depan.kiri.kanan

Im stuck!di tengah-tengah kekalutan ini.Argh~.Tak nak tolong,kesian.Kene tolong gak.Tak tolong kene marah.Diluah mati kawan,ditelan mati emak kawan.Aiyoo.Nehi babuji.Complicated seyh.Pening,serabut sume ade.Nuff of dis.
Esok we are going to putrajaya.For some leadership programme.Owh,daku berleadership kah?Lol.Tapi im sure it's gonna be sooooo boring with all the talks bla3.Beta mau study la bro.Bazir mase je.Dah la nak dekat final dah.Siot anda.
Btw,i've passed all my papers.Yahu yabedabedu!!!!Except for that fucking t10 yang only 3 people passed.So it's not coz im not rady or wat.Tapi salah q tu coz susah sangat.

to hell la with the looks..

Honestly,i do judge people based on their looks.I know.Kejam amat.Who am i to judge?Miss world?Miss Universe?And i don't even think that those girls are like me.A few months back,i've hurt a guy because i think he's not up to my so-called-standard-of-a-dream-guy.Damn man.He's nice.Uber nice.Amat sweet coz dat was his first time getting to know a girl.And i was so cruel.Suke ati je nk moody,nk emo and threw it all on him.I pitied him.Seyesly.But i dunno wat was i thinking till dis day.Hopefully he's still straight and there will be an angel for him.Not me.ARE YOU GOOD ENOUGH BIE??No,u don't.So please,stop judging coz people are all the same in the eyes of HIM.
Few days ago,i know dis guy.A friend of a friend.He's a great guy.Im trying not to judge him whatsoever.I have to say that we are having some sort of special bond.Is it because we both are vulnerable?I don't know.But i missed this feelings.Frigging missing it.Have u ever feel so berbunge-bunge inside..u feel like flying..even a simple sms from him can make u smile?Well,dat's me now.I wake up everyday and he's on my mind.And how i hope he feels the same way too.Tapi...I dunno why...Apik told me to give him a pass coz i can score a better guy.I cried because of dat.I HATE apik for saying dat.Tapi i know dat he wants the best for me.Tapi he's the guy who told me not to judge others.Tah la.A bit in a dilemma now.Is he dat bad?Even if he is,i think dat i don't care.I like him as the way he is.Am i rushing this??I think i am.Tapi he makes me feel so...ME.I dont even know how to describe it.I'm not talking bout all this lovey dovey,holding hands,i love u u love me stuff.It's about the tale of the heart.I want someone to care bout me.And i think he does.I hope that he does.And know i hate this judging thingy.Who are we?Truth be told there is no fixed criteria of someone who is good-looking,someone hot,someone ugly.It's all in us.In me.The 'bullshitlity' is in us.And how i wish i could get rid of it.So i can treat someone way better.I know this is going nowhere.

evil me..sangatkah???

5th nov is deli's birthday..and i didnt even call or msg to wish him.KEJAMKAH DAKU?well,im in my ngaju mode cz he didnt reply my msgs..Memang la kat bilik die tu line cam bengom skit..Tho konon utp tu hebat sangat la..Tapi tade line..Apekah???Tapi boley je kuar jap msg kan..N my msg pon bukan yang kene reply asap pon..At least die kne rply la..Ni senyap je..Idop ke mati tataw..Die agk psycho..Childish may i say..Tapi he's my bestie..So yes...memang kejam..Tapi wat to do..hE has to know that im hurt...




btw,nov the 5th pom birthday luqman..Aiyoo..Pndai je pilih bestie same birthday..Sve budget gitu..Boley wat party same..Kire package g2..How i wish these two guys could meet..Tapi now baby luqz is in india.Cian i sorang-sorang here babe.Tapi i know that even the seven seas seperated us,u'll still care bout me kan.Love u muchos.Happy birthday bro.

I'll love u guys till all the cows in the world bark.Sayang sangat kamu...

deli,bie,pise..2nd raye 2008

he's doing fine there i guess...

writing to myself...

gosh..final is in 1 month..less than a month actually..and bie is still koya-ing,daydreaming,sleeping,shopping..mmg maen-maen la actually..wakey wakey..bile nk sedar nie..*slap butt*..no one can help u bie..study la..u know kn u only have one shot..stop okayh..u know u can..stop all those thots too..make mama and ayah proud..u are their favourite daughter kan(or aren't you??).and cik mara will be happy too..u'll get more money when ur in acca.finish ur study cepat-cepat then u won't be lonely lagi every night.That time u xde time even for urself pon.Padan muke kamu.Lol.Then u can have all the things yang u nak.Those things yang ppl laughed when u mentioned bout it.The most ridiculous thing is bathroom w/o bumbung tu.Konon nak mandi under the stars.Lol.Realised it.Biar senyap sume.Mesti jeles diorg nnt.Prove it that u can..Tapi first thing kene study dulu okeh...

M.A.B.U.K

Ended my dreadful week with fabulousity.Went to times square with ain on Saturday with a mission to enjoy gile-gile after that horrendous trial.Konon cam post exam stress buster la.

Ain is SOMETHING.Nampak je kecik tapi berani amat~.Like K.A said ‘ala ain tu kan blur-blur sikit,dats why die xtakot’.Sume ride dekat cosmo’s world tu die naek.Ciap ley naek banyak-banyak kali.Memang worth it la die bayar 37bucks for that.Me on the other hand naek a few rides only.Pening la.I’ve always have something with the things yang putar-putar and pusing-pusing.Dulu time skola selalu kne jumpe doctor.Doc ckp ade vertigo or whatever it is.

Tapi yang lawaknye time naek bumper car.Nape la si ain ni xgerak.She tot the car gerak sendiri.Duh.’Minyak.Tekan minyak ain!!!Minyak kat hujung tu’Baru la gerak.Pity her.Ptot biar je die kat situ kan.Lol.Ingat kete tu auto ke ape...

The roller coaster ride is totally terrifying.My harness belt came off during the 360 loop.Naseb baek yang bawah je cabut.Kalau taka de je yang jadi arwah.Nauzubillah.I was like ‘Ain,belt aku cbut!!!Gno ni ain??Ya alla,ya allah’.That time baru nak ingat mama coz I didn’t ask for her permission dulu.Naseb baek panjang umur lagi kan.

Then ain rode the dna mixture.It was very wise of me not to ride that thing.Syabas bie.I tot it only shakes and spins.Macam ade la dat mixture thing yang slalu ade kat lab tu.Tapi bile da start tu memang ternanga la.The inventor of this freaky dna mixture sure gile.Pagel.Out of mind.Insane.Rambut sure lagi hebat than Einstein.Bukan setakat turn,ciap boley tumble lagi.MemAng mixed la dna diorg.M sure on that.Macam mr. bean’s bear dalam washing machine tu.No wonder akiey bley muntah time naek bnde ni dat day.Tapi Im really proud coz ain was the only gurl in it.You go gurl!

The next ride is izzy dizzy kot.It spins and turns.Ain boley cakap cam naek buai.Da nak tercabot anak mate rasenye.Jerit tu xpayah cakap la.Mate mmg pejam rapat.After the ride I puked.Haha.Hilang machoku.Awww~Naseb baek da smpai toilet.Then ain naek a few ride lagi.Yg pusing-pusing,yang putar-putar.I memang xlarat gile dah.Terjelepek somewhere depan entrance.Ciap boley babysit anak cine lagi.Lol.Dat boy is sooooo adorable.’If I ride dat coaster,I’ll vomit and people down here will be like ‘ape tu?’’.Omg.He has the mind of 19 years old or I have the mind of a sixers?Same lak our thought.

Then makan besar at johnny’s.Love it there.Favourite.Then off to tgv.SHOWTIME!Kitorg tengok the coffin.As always,mesti tutop muke.Tengok thru celah jari je.Ok la cite tu.Tapi ending die xpaham.Then masuk balek cosmo’s.Biar je la budak kecik tu maen-maen.Then there was this Haunted Chamber.Nampak cam bes.Da nak masuk dah.Tapi suddenly ade 1 group lari-lari kuar.Ciap ade yang merangkak lagi.So teros xjadi msok.If ramai-ramai boley la msok.Ni me and ain je.Sure terok kene.Tak sanggup mak.

Then sopim sopim a bit.Tibe-tibe rase nak membolim.Yes!!i won!!(bangge).Segale penat lelahku berlatih di kb mall paid off.Tapi xsampai 100 pon pin jatuh.Style je lebey.Haha.

Balek makan char kuey tiaw at hijazi.TIDO!!!!

Fuad said that i think too much...herm...