hey baby!

She's cute. She's adorable. I want her!! Oh i hope my daughter will be just like her.



Hello baby,can u hear me?Nanti baby jadi macam ni taw.Mommy nak tidur baby nyanyi and daddy gosok belakang.*sambil gosok perut*















ps:she's two years old.
pps:happy new year everyone!

me+train=endless woes

macam ni baru thrill!

Imagine that you are almost 5 ft short tall.The person behind u is pushing u inwards but the person in front of u is shouting 'weh takde otak ke?jangan tolak lah'. That's when you will feel like you are a salmon in its journey upstream. Menentang arus orang Melayu kata. Kalau go ahead kena makan kat beruang,kalau stop nanti tak boleh mengawan. Nak pilih yang mane? The latter of course. Haha. Mengawan lagi penting but only if I were a salmon lah kan. Atau mungkin bagai pepatah Melayu diluah mati emak,ditelan mati bapak. Mungkin. Kesabaran yang nipis diuji bertubi-tubi. Oh don't forget that you are not even 5ft tall. Stuck in between strangers, memang lemas sambil mulut berdoa untuk dikurniakan ketinggian extra di masa yang paling kritikal ini making you the filling of a human sandwich.




OK dah boleh masuk.




Seat penuh. The whole train is effing packed. Where to go? Cari tiang untuk berpeluk since ketinggian tidak mengizinkan untuk bergayut di besi overhead. Tengok sekeling. Oh rase sangat kosmopolitan dan global bila nampak Indons, Burmese, Nigerians, Filipinos berada dalam train yang sama. Rasa lagi hebat bila melihat rakyat sendiri memerah tenaga berdiri bergayut sekuat hati tetapi foreigners *usually indons* memadu asmara duduk di atas kerusi. Mungkin saya tak global, tapi bila naik train di negara sendiri rasa macam di negara asing saat itulah rasa nak buat salam perantauan. Boleh kira dengan jari berapa orang Malaysians in a coach. Given the substantial amount of illegal immigrants,I'm pretty sure only 1 out of 4 of the so called foreigners is PATI. This is based on my frequent observation because I always play a guessing game when I'm on the train. It's called 'Malaysian ke tak'. The rule is simple,teka je lah orang tu Malaysian ke tak. Nak tahu jawapan senang je. Dengar lah cara die cakap macam mane. Tapi kalau nak tahu jawapan lagi tepat tunggulah bila ade pegawai imigresen. Kalau orang tu kena escort surelah tu he'll get a free ride balik negara asal. Syabas rakyat Malaysia. Memang kita pemurah dan menghormati tetamu.




Standing among strangers in a crowded place is hardwork. You'll have people oops! purposely grabs your !@#, breathing on your neck, stepping on your foot(lagi best bila orang tu pakai heels). So what to do? Kalau defend depan belakang terdedah, defend belakang depan terdedah. In the end,you will be clutching to your bag for your dear life. And you will notice that the person beside you is in bliss sebab dapat rezeki extra hari ini. Oh you know what I'm trying to say. I have my own personal experience on this matter. Kalau handsome rela ok lah jugak ni muka tak siap.





Oh your height makes you more vulnerable. Why? BECAUSE YOUR NOSE IS PARALLEL TO OTHER PEOPLE's SMELLY ARMPITS. And thank you strangers for sharing me the wonders of your tropical forest down there. Very much appreciated. Hurm. You know all these tall people has to bergayut to that besi kat atas so that is why I'm more privileged than others because when they lift their hands,my nose is literally just beside their armpits. I can even estimate when was their last shave. Euw. Sometimes dirty thoughts do ignite. Maybe their partners enjoy playing with bulu ketiak. Boleh pusing-pusing. Alah macam high school girl in love on the phone. Hahahaha. One word,GELI! Hell no. Geli is not enough.





Thank god the next stop is yours.Phew.



So when the government announced that our public transportation sysytem will be upgraded, a smile was plastered to my face. But I can help thinking that the Indons, Burmese and so on will benefit more from these amenities. Jahat kan.But HELLO MR MINISTERS THAT'S THE HARD FACT. Get on board the Komuter and you'll know. Tapi jangan main kotor bawak entourage sekampung dengan wartawan sekali naik coach kosong. Tu main tipu. Memang lah rasa selesa macam tu. Adoi. Or maybe we don't have to worry about which car to give to the ministers. Nak bagi Perdana ke Camry bagai. Bagi je lah naik Komuter, LRT. Barulah terbukti pemimpin berjiwa rakyat. Anyway,terima kasih saya ucapkan.













ps:lepas ni sure kena buluh runcing kalau pergi indon.
pps:buy me a car anyone?ehehe
pps:budak ni nak kena ISA ni.

but tummy can't be jingled!!

that's Adam sucking in his tummy and Sarah

Hello Santa.


I missed something from my letter. I'm so sorry. I know it's quite late already as you have a dateline to meet but I think u still can get one of your elves to FedEx it to you. I bet you are now zooming across the world,squeezing your tummy through the tight chimneys. It must be hard. But what happened if the house doesn't has a chimney? Herm.


I want a Disney World vacation for my family. It's especially for my nephew,Adam but some time together with the family won't hurt right. He wants to go to Disneyland so bad since one of his classmates in Q-dees already went there. He's a very clever boy and I'm sure he is not in your naughty list. Except for the part when he called me 'Ciksu busuk' or 'Ciksu Gemuk' every now and then. I'm OK with it coz I know he is so jealous of his gorgeous Ciksu *coughs* I promised him to take him to Disneyland when I'm rich, but u know how an accountant is very particular with money.Plus,by that time I might already have 4 kids and Adam is probably 20 years old already. Disneyland won't be so exciting for him anymore. I know he wants this so bad because he always mention this in his prayers. You know how a five years old is. He doesn't know how to solat but he tries his best to perform Maghrib with his Mommy so that he can go to Disneyland. I once heard him said 'Ya Allah, bagilah mommy dengan papa banyak duit.Biar boleh bawak Adam pergi Disneyland'.How cute is that.Sadly,he already has his list of the selected people to go to Disneyland with him, and I'm not included.Hence I could only tag along to Disneyland if I'm the one who take him there. I think he's jealous because he knows that I'll look cuter than him with that Mouse's ears ting. I'll buy you one of that thing once I'm there.Please Santa,this is not just for Adam,it's for me too.Tee-hee.Oh by the way,I also enclosed one of Adam's picture above for your quick reference.

ps:why settle for disneyland if we have disney world.
pps:i hate it when shopping malls went crazy decorating for xmas while they just put a few ketupats for raya.
ppps:merry christmas.hohoho

don't jingle the bells,jingle your tummy!

Dear Santa,

How are you? I bet it must be super freezing up there in North Pole but I reckon I don't have to worry because you have Mrs. Claus to look after you. Or is she taking a vacation in Bahamas now because you're ignoring her due to your workloads? That's not cool old man. Or is it because the Pole is getting smaller because the glaciers have melted? Oh poor polar bears. My best wishes to them. Maybe they have to consider to move to Malaysia. It's nice down here but I'm afraid the can't keep the fur so 'clorox-like' white anymore.

Do I have to tell you why I write to you? Oh you must knew it already. Am I in your nice list? Don't tell me I'm in your naughty list cause I've been a really nice girl this year. And I know I deserve a present or two or maybe more. I promise I'll leave the most delicious cookies for you but promise me that you are not going to eat all cookies in every house you will go or else I'll just leave u some crackers. My dad always eat cream crackers for breakfast and he is as healthy as the cow.

U know what I want right Santa? But, I think it is ok for me to remind you once again. Just in case your elves don't keep their list up-to-date. So here we go. Can I get all one of these?

1) New shoes. I'm a shoes addict but I can't and I don't buy them so often. I have a concrete reason for that. Somehow I'm in between of size 5 and 6. They don't sell size 5 1/2. It breaks my heart when I intend to buy new shoes but none fits me. All I can do is stare at them, visualizing them on my feet while singing my version of 'Out of Reach' by Gabrielle. Do you know that song? It goes like this 'Out of reach,too far,I'll never have your heart'. In my case it's 'Out of reach,too far,I'll never have u shoes'. You know I'll ask you for new shoes next year,so why don't we make this easier for both of us? Just bestow me with endless shoes for the rest of my life so I'll stop making the same request every year. Tee-hee.


2) Macbook Pro. Probably you are wondering why do I need a Macbook as I only use laptop to surf the net and I'm totally not a tech junkie. I didn't even know what is IDM, not till a friend told me about it. It's the Internet Download Manager for god's sake. It's a miracle that my laptop is still functioning after all these years. So,end her misery and give my the Macbook Pro and I promise to take great care of her and you know that white looks good on me though I'm not wearing the Macbook.U got my point Santa?


3) New phone. My phone is already a little over two years old. And at these parts of the world,gadgets go obsolete in a week. Do the math. My phone technically was born in the Jurassic years of technology,the new millennium has passed and I'm still clinging to it. Hence, a new phone is very much appreciated. He's now not adapting much to the new environment, thanks to the global warming I suppose, and I want to be fully prepared (reads:a new phone in my hands to inform my friends) if he ever dies on me.


4) New car for my mom. My dad is so in love with his cars. He doesn't even have the heart to sell it off not even they are beaten up. Poor mama as she is the main driver of the car know since my dad is more comfortable with his bike. It's not that he can't afford it but he just don't want to sell to old cars. You might say 'just ask him to buy the car.He doesn't need to sell the car'. Mind you,a new addition without any disposal is not a good idea since only my mom and dad are going to use them. So three cars for two people is a big NO NO. It doesn't meet the 'value for money' quality that I've learned. One has to ensure the efficiency,effectiveness and the economic value before decicing. That's what Mdm. Siti and Mr. Ganisen taught me. U must be proud of me,applying my knowledge in my everyday life. LOL. My dad is not going to drive the car. He prefers his Honda 50CC over new cars. Plus,my mom drives only when necessary like to buy some groceries and 'make gulai'. Other than that,the cars are as good as dead.


5)Randall Amplifiers. I can't strum the guitars and heck I never ever owned one yet I'm hoping to see my stockings filled with this thing.Crazy u might think. He wants it sooooooo bad but he can't afford it now. Neither do I. And I don't think that we can afford to buy it even if we piled our money together. Please Santa. Seeing his face light up will be a bliss. I know how it hurts wanting something that you know you can't get. Just like me and the shoes. Sobs.




So that's all Santa. You know how lazy I am in updating my blog and I've made a huge effort to write this letter to you. I'd appreciate it if you grant one of my wishes,but try granting all of it. You will feel so much better.Trust me. I recommend that you try it now. I mean NOW!!! Till next year,xoxoxo

ps:can i borrow one of your elves?
pps:snow would be nice.
ppps:this is just for fun!
pppps:why cant blogspot make the font colours more fun?ergh

KENAPA?WHY?PORQE?

Facebook die penuh orang puji lawa cantik anggun bergaya cute berduyun-duyun?

Tapi saya?

Ha,jealous lah tu*slapbutt*

ps:betol ke eja porqe macam tu?hahaha
pps:nak tido sebab rase down.sebab rase down nak tido.ok dah hebat buat inversi.
ppps:oh this is just a random rambling.tidak ditujukan kepada sesiapa.

mommy,where is my present?

Facebook is the essence of our life.Is the word 'facebook' has already been included in the major dictionaries?I don't think so cause I can't find any definition of 'facebook' on the net.But I think they should 'christened' it just like what they did with Google.People just can't get enough of facebook.But the wonderwoman bie hashim can go two months long without it.Tu pun sebab tak bayar broadband.Tapi tibe-tibe hati ini berbisik,'eh bodohnya facebook ni'.

Ask me why?

BECAUSE,we just simply let strangers flooding into our life.As for me,I try to keep my facebook 'friends' only to my real life friends.Friend of a friend?Only selected few.It's already hard enough for me to keep in touch with my almost 400 'friends'.I don't know how those with 2000 'friends' could cope.Do they really have 2000 friends?Maybe,who knows.

The best part is,u can simply delete the 'friends' from your list.Oh how I wish it could happened in real life.Gaduh delete,lepas tu add balik.Bff forever whatsnot bla bla bla delete balik.Apekah jenis kehidupan?Tak pun memang saje-saje nak delete sebab malu that someone is in your oh-so-cool-'friends' list.Do U think that U can literally end the friendship ikatan silaturrahim dan ukhwah yang telah terjalin with a click?One word,pathetic.

An example of delete add balik:A guy who cursed me with all the bad words imaginable saying that I'm harrasing his girlfriend.Adoi did I look like I got nothing to do?Kalau gua harass awek lu,dah lame la gua kenal sape minah tu*ayat nak gengster je*.After I explained that I did nothing without even raising my voice pun still nak maki kan.Ni memang bodoh lah name die.But fret not,this is only bodoh part one.Tak abes cerita lagi.Turns out that big grin shitty face of his is on my 'friends' to approved list.Maybe he is suffering from amnesia.Dah tak ingat kot mulut celupar gile babi.My dear girls,Ayu and Pise told me just to accept the request berbekalkan pepatah 'buang yang keruh ambil yang jernih'.With all the perempuan-sial-memalukan makian is still ringing I accepted it just for the sake that we had been a good friends before.Hish terus pegi tegur dekat Facebook chat 'howwa u?how u've been doing?'.!#$^.Senang gile kutuk anak orang terus bila add dekat Facebook dosa kau hilang lah?Banyak cantik.Aku tak sebaik tu.

Lepas tu gambar dekat Facebook semua nak pose bergaya mutu keunggulan.Ergh.For the girls,mostly nak gambar tak nampak dahi sikit dengan mata bulat mulut muncung.Eh,do I have a picture like that?Hahaha.As for the guys,dada mesti nak nampak.Lagi bulu lagi bagus.Kalu pakai shades lagi bagus.Baru nampak macam Once.Blergh.I don't want my 'friend' actually is a sick pedophile who spend his days laying on the couch looking for innocent,angelic,vulnerable little girl like me *lolz* just to satisfy his 'needs'.Creepy cukup.

Why do some people needs to get their daily dose of facebook?Facebook-ing over coffee,facebook-ing after dinner,facebook-ing at break,faceboook facebook all day along.Time to sleep:Ops,gotta check my facebook first.Don't want to miss any updates.

Ok sesi merepek tamat sebab nak tengok Moulin Rouge.Bakal bersambung.







ps:super lama tak update.ergh.
pps:diet baru:makan tido makan makan.sure turun 6kgs over the holiday.
pps:this entry is made by an avid facebooker.

I'm not going to kiss a frog!

My oh my.My next paper,the LAST paper is on Tuesday and yet I still haven't found neither my thinking cap nor any 'apetite' to study.I feel like the whole knowledge,only if there is any inside of me is going to gush out every time I tried my best to revise.And since my past two papers seemed not 'pass-able' I have no other choice.Have to get my heavy head cranking or else I'll failed this paper also.

But since fail is not an option to me so please my friends or even you are a stranger who happened to be reading my blog,PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE pray for me.

oh no!

Kenapa nak sebut barli panas pergi sebut bandung panas?
Kenapa nak sebut marjerin pergi sebut minyak?
Kenape nak order kue tiaw pergi sebut bubur?
Kenape nak sebut kiri pergi sebut kanan?

Seriously I don't know what is wrong with my brain.It happened for a few times already.Last night nasib baik tak marah waiter cause bawak bandung panas.In fact I memang order bandung panas bukan barli panas.Last-last tak minum.Sape la minum bandung panas kan.Euw.

Maybe I'm having some sort of neuron malfunction.Perhaps all my neurotransmitter are on a strike sebab makan tak cukup?Or maybe this is a sign that i'm slowly losing my mind sebab kuat sangat berfikir?Herm.Pffft.

ps:ni semue salah mama tak bagi susu DHA dulu.
pps:nak kene makan lagi bnyak ke nak pujuk neurotransmitters tu?ehe.

oh shit

Somebody please slap my butt!

PEMALAS sangat ni.

MATAHARIKU

My parents are leaving for Mecca to perform their Haj next Tuesday. Syukur Alhamdulillah. Grateful I am. But I have to admit that I'm feeling a bit anxious. This will be the fourth time for ayah and the second time for mama. Biarlah ayah saya bawak motor Honda 50cc tak bawak Jaguar pon yang penting investment akhirat cukup. And why am i afraid? No. Bukan sebab dah tak dapat tidur bawah ketiak mama and dah tak dapat 'hello,ayah nak duit' for a month. Takut dengan segala dugaan dan cabaran yang bakal dihadapi both of them. Dengan segala ragam manusia dari seluruh pelusuk dunia. Semoga mereka sabar menghadapi segala ujian dari Nya.

My dad is already 70 and that is an extra point why am I afraid. He once said 'If ayoh xdop di Mekoh ayoh redha'. And i jokingly said 'Ish kalu nak xdop pon tunggu la tengok cucu dari bie. Haha'. But deep inside I'm bawling despite my lame joke and my happy face which I tried to put on. Me and ayah,the family resemblances are there. Mama always said that I'm the mini version of ayah. Even all the mak ciks and relatives said 'Serupo dengan ayah die'. Let it be due to our fairness,laziness,our obsession to think bout others sampai sakit kepala,our romantic-ness, I am very much flattered and so very thankful to be his daughter. We didn't get along very well when i was 13-15 years old. Estrogen kicked in,konon dah besar,matang lagi dewasa. And yes I'm regretting every single minutes of it. If only I could turn back time and undo it. Tapi bak kata Miasara dalam Papadom 'MUNGKIN hanya lahir dari hati orang yang tak bersyukur dengan apa yang ada di depan mata'. So I'm living the moment,no turning back to my foolish days and trying to make up for all the things I've done or said.

A few days before Raya,I cried watching iklan Raya. Call me gay I don't care. Mungkin abu raihan menangis tengok iklan Pieere Andre sebab die tak confirm dapat balik Raya tak but I cried watching the Petronas ad. At least I think it's from Petronas. Ala yang 'nanti kakak besar,kakak dengan adik makan sini. Ayah makan kat sana.' Sape rajin cari lah. Sape malas tunggu Raya next year tengok ok. The gist is so obvious. How can't we look after the guy who have been looking after us all our life. How am I afraid that I would turn to be that Malin Kundang.Ya Allah please give me the guidance so that I won't go astray.

Guys,please pray that my parents will have a safe journey and dikurniakan haji mabrur.Amin.




ps:ayah,i love you*teary eyes*
pps:im feeling completely drained both mentally and physically.
ppps:go go tengok papadom.

there was a little voice in my head.

orang kate

kalau mimpi kene patuk ular

nanti ade orang besar nak meminang

tapi kalu mimpi kene gigit jerung

ape orang kate?








ps:mungkin jodoh sudah tersangapsangat dekat?*slapbutt*
pps:mungkin jodoh dah di-ngap jerung?

dalam dingin subuh...

I've made 1786 desperate attempt to update this blog and none managed to overcome the excessive 'backspac-ing'.Darn! Am I getting duller day by day as much as I'm getting fatter?Blergh.Hope not.Well ramadhan is over.And so does syawal tho syawal is a month long.But the much awaited 1st sywal is poof-ed already!There goes the year long excitement.All the hustle of thinking which baju to wear,kaler ape sume dah takde.Yang ade are all the damn fattening foods that will stay at my waist.As I grow older,I've realised that how raya is nothing different than any other days sebab duit raya dah kurang.When i was younger,Raya is the time of the year when Azirah Hashim will be extremely rajin helping out dengan harapan nak duit raya lebih.Hahaha.Tapi sekarang tak lagi.No.Bukan sekarang tak rajin.Sekarang AZIRAH IS STILL RAJIN without needing the 'motivation'.

On pagi raya,I tengok la siaran langsung Sembahyang Raya dekat RTM tu since since my period cycle mereng xleh tunggu 1 more day.Tapi i sakit hati lagi annoyed tengok tu.WHY?Coz all the jemaah had to wait for YDPA and PM dulu before they can perform their solat aidilfitri.And the two fellas came with all the 'big guy' escorts dengan red carpet lagi nasib baik takde pulut kuning,bungga manggar and kompang.I admit that I'm a bit shallow in Islam tapi kita kan serupa di sisi-Nya.The only difference is iman and taqwa right?So i memang tak berkenan with this practice.Biarlah the leaders and the rakyats get the same treatment in masjids.Tak payah la nak tunggu ape sume.Macam ajal maut jodoh pertemuan.Ade die tunggu anybody?Takde kan.Kate 1Malaysia kan?.Isk stop.Nanti masuk bab politic pulak.

Rase tak bile besar,lagi kecik rase raya tu?As in dah tak ter'excited' sangat.Poyo la kan tak excited padahal baju raya 4 pasang pon still nak tambah.Dush!My point is,when we were kids semue excited terlompat-lompat bile tengok pengisytiharan raya then bila malam memang tidur tak lena takut miss raya.Tapi bile dah besar,apart from the 'raya shopping' there's not much kan.Dah tak rase excited macam dulu.Excited sebab dah managed to puasa,excited sebab dapat jumpa all the relatives yang duduk nun jauh and that's it.What's left is the fattening Raya foods which will cling ages to my waist.Lepas tu dah tak de ape untuk di excitedkan.Raya sekarang macam kosong.Am i taking my raya for granted?Perhaps.

And oh di hari yang mulia ini saya ingin menyusun jari memohon kemaafan di atas salah silap,terguris hati,ter-over perbuatan.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.duit raya?

ps:semue orang datang puji saya dah kurus.mungkinkah ini akan kekal selepas raya?

pps:please don't ISAsized me.

ppps:jemput lah datang rumah.

aku rindu padamu..

Ramadhan is almost over.A few weeks ago i was so eager waiting for Ramadhan to come ni dah nak raya dah.Ok i have to admit it,I'm more eager to meet Syawal.Hahaha.Silly me.But alhamdulillah terawih tahun ni lagi banyak dari last year sebagaimana baju raya tahun ni lagi banyak dari last year.Hahaha.Sebab ade 4 baju raya so kene lah ibadah lebih sikit kan.Baru worth it.Ramadhan brings pool of memories to me.Kadang-kadang rasa macam semalam masih budak.Tengok-tengok hari ni dah boleh jadi mak budak.How time flies.There are many memorable moments from my childhood ramadhan.And i miss them deeply.Kan best ade doraemon.Boleh masuk laci naik mesin masa pergi time kecik-kecik dulu.Tapi nak buat camne,doraemon tak wujud and if doraemon ade pon i sure tak muat masuk laci tu.Tsk tsk.



MY RAMADHAN MOMENTS:

i)Bila dah tak tahan sangat lapar,letih,penat sume pergilah masuk bathroom.Berendam.Tak tak payah imagine berendam dalam bath tub.Takde maknanya.Bukak shower paling laju then baring la atas lantai.Lepastu berangan la tengah ade orang massage tak pun tengah swimming.Lepastu konon practice bubbling dengan air.Ade rezeki masuk la air sikit.Rofl.Tapi sekarang dah tak buat dah coz makruh mandi lama-lama.Betol.


ii)'Mama,bie sakit perut lah.Tak leh bangun ni.Tak pergi terawih eh'.Dialog biasa kalau dekat disney channel ade cite best.Time-time puasa ni la ada concert N'sync pujaan hati tapi sekarang malu nak ngaku pernah minat,Nickelodeon Award whatsnot.Before mama pergi muka selembek macam kutu,after tak dengar enjin terus jerit-jerit macam gila tengok Lance Bass.Tapi dasar Lance tak guna dah jadi gay.Buat penat je jerit dulu.Sape tak taw Lance Bass die lame time kecik dulu ok.

iii)Pastu kalau pergi terawih pon mama mesti kene semayang belakang sikit.Sebab anak mama perut lembu makan banyak tapi time terawih tersenguk-sengguk kalah pak bilal.Konon save la sikit kan mama semayang belakang sikit.Jatuh boleh support.Pfft


iv)Masjid mustaqim and masjid kemumin.Ni masjid yang berjaya 'dibasahkan' time terawih dulu.Ok tak nak go into detail dah.Sensitif.Nanti dah tak ade orang nak masuk meminang dah.


v)Dulu time 6 tahun terawih saf paling belakang.Then ade budak laki kacau.Comel gila.Anak arab ok.Lepastu gelak la gedik-gedik.Sekali mama taw terus dah tak pergi masjid tu.Hampa.Cinta kami dipisahkan.First love tu weh.Pfft.


vi)Pernah tercekik onde-onde aka buah melaka sebab nak challenge abang hebat boleh telan bende tu sekaligus.Terus biru muka.Nasib baik selamat.Kalau tak sure haru 'seorang kanak-kanak mati tercekik buah melaka wtf' keluar front page.


vii)Simen depan rumah pernah terbakar kena mercun gasing.Sume cuak sebab takot kene marah.Masuk rumah tak cakap kat mama.Tapi kalau dah simen tu berkeripot keriyot sure la kantoi kan.


Ok dah la tu.Audit ade banyak kene buat.Finance pon tak siap lagi.Nak maen game lagi.Hish.So little time,so much to do.Ayat tipikal orang malas la tu.

Bye people!Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Batin.



ps:my birthday is getting close!!!nak bagi macbook pon i terima.hahahaha
pps:sape ade resipi biskut raya best?

BITTER SWEET

Dulu...
Saya pernah kata 'If you are happy,i'm happy for you'.
Tapi saya tak maksudkannya pon.
Sebab saya nak tengok awak jatuh.
Sebab life awak macam perfect.
And awak selalu eksyen dengan saya.

Sekarang,
Bila saya kata 'Are u kidding me?I'm happy for you!'.
Tu memang dari hati saya.
Sebab awak deserved all that.
Dan saya tahu saya pon deserved the happiness.
Saya, awak, kita ade are taking different route to happiness.


For everything we've shared, silly jokes, deep conversations, i-wet-my-pants-laughter,
I'm THANKFUL.






ps:oh i cant wait for december to come.cepatlah!

deep inside i'm lost

Alhamdulillah.Shukran Ya Allah.I've passed all the 3 papers with whooping marks should i say.
I'll be forever grateful to HIM for showing me the path which i never thought i could take.For giving me strength through it all,the beacon for my insignificant soul.








ps:should have posted this looooong ago.a short post is still too much for a procrastinator
pps:this is onlt the beginning.

PCD is banned!!!Totally..

the 'pcd in me'.terserlah dari kecik y'all

I have TWO papers tomorrow.And they are such a nuisance since i haven't gotten my exam result.Okay here's the drill.I'm taking ACCA so result will be out 2 months after the exam.Macam SPM lah kan.Jawab exam macam gila lepastu enjoy macam gila tak pon menangis gila sebab kena masuk plkn lepastu baru cuak gila tunggu result.Ha,macam tu lah!Get my point tak?So sape lah nak study kan if result last sitting tak dapat lagi.But since Uitm has a very strict policy so kena lah study jugak.Tapi i tak study pon.Ngehee.Btw,my result will be out this monday.Come on y'all!Keep your fingers ape sume crossed i'll pass all three papers.InsyaAllah.

And yesterday i came out with a theory that kegatalan seseorang perempuan itu bertambah bila mengalami mensturasi.Guess what people?!My theory is definitely right.Betol tak tipu.I siap buat research okeh.Tak caye click sini.Tak pe i taw korang takkan click punye.Nasib baik i baik hati tolong tiru tampal.

Women can experience a variety of sensations before, during or after their menses. Common complaints include backache, pain in the inner thighs, bloating, nausea, diarrhea, constipation, headaches, breast tenderness, irritability, and other mood changes. Women also experience positive sensations such as relief, release, euphoria, new beginning, invigoration, connection with nature, creative energy, exhilaration, increased sex drive and more intense orgasms.

Woh i bangga.Walaupun biology b3 time spm dulu dapat i berjaya buat theory macam ni.Nyatalah pengalaman hidup lagi bermakna dari buku teks biology.Ok ayat macam pelik tapi tak pe asal i paham.So girls,sedarlah kita untung jadi perempuan.Next time if u rase mamat kat depan tu handsome and rase nak kenyit mata tapi boifren ade kat sebelah go ahead.Kalau boifren sound cakap la 'ala sayang,i period.memang macam ni.hormon ape sume.u kene paham'.

Woots!

ps:i think we girls have millions of excuses aite?

pps:please please please pray for me.

ppps:i dont think i should swim in a public pool anymore.H1N1 is sooo scareeee..

pppps:i HATE pussycat dolls.yet 'hush hush' keeps playing in my head.ironic isn't it?

my lips like sugar.

2 hours to go.

oh god please make the clock ticks faster.

say HELLO to marilyn monroe!

hey loves!

Is it normal for us women to feel 'weh-aku-gemuk-perut-boroi-pipi-menggelebeh'?It's normal kan kan?Please jawab normal coz kalau tak nampak sangat I yang tak normal.And laki macam abu n zul tak payah gedik nak jawab.Anda tak tercalon dalam kategori ni.

I think there are definitely something in us women maybe some sort of crazy hormone yang boleh buat our brain jadi meroyan lalu potrays our body 10 size bigger.So timbullah rase sangat bloated lagi bulky lalu keluar nafsu nak diet.Dan bila diet tak jadi terus hampa tak nak makan kalau makan pon nasik sejemput padahal perut jakun yang tak boleh tak makan nasik lapar gile.Lepas tu tanya si boyfie 'Syg,i gemuk tak?'.Bile cik boifren jawab 'No syg.U tak gemuk'.Terus mengamuk kate teman lelaki tipu saje nak amek hati dengan ayat 'U tipu!U cakap camtu sebab u boyfriend i kan?!'.Tapi bile boyfren cakap 'Erm,u bulat sikit' terus merajuk tak nak keluar makan dah.Like what is wrong with us kan?Kenapa perlu ade rasa aku gemuk ke weh?THIN IS SO OVERRATED BTW.

Ape best jadi kurus kan?Angin tiup boleh melayang,kene langgar sikit boleh patah.And the best part orang kurus tak best dihug*tu wan pai kate*.LOL.Seriously i bengang with all the slimming program ad.Macam dah takde bende laen nak iklan.Dahtu sampai bila mentality kita nak betol.U GUYS ARE THE REASONS WHY WOMEN LIKE ME FEEL INSECURE.I still remember there was this one time when i was having a great time with my friends in a mall tiba-tiba datang sorang minah datang and gave me a slimming program pamphlet.I wouldn't even give a shit if she gave it to all of us.Tapi ni ONLY to me.Serious malu.She kinda ruined my day.Tanx!I don't think im not THAT fat sampai nak kena enrol in a slimming programme.That's why whenever i see ade booth yang offer slimming program dengan salesgirl yang mata gila galak mencari mangsa i akan avoid it.These people sangat demotivating and i certainly don't need that in my life.

Whatever it is,I know that I'm beautiful no matter what and all the shits u say won't bother me because IF IM UGLY SO ARE U!





ps:dialog di atas tiada kene mengena dengan yang hidup atau yang mati.
pps:nampak sangat gila kan.paragraph atas emo.yang bawah perasan plak.
pps:i need to learn how to choose a good friend.

my best friend is maya karin.

By now i guess u guys already know how gatal-nak-kawen-i-am*wink angkat kening gatal*.But mama kate 'bie nak couple tunggu abes belajar dulu!'.So impian nak kawen memang hancur luluh berkecai terhempas ke bumi lah kan.Mama tak tau ke anak mama ni gatal?

Tapi....

Tapi...

Tapi i jumpa tag ni!Lalu terus menjadi rajin mengetag diri walaupun tak ditag walaupun hutang tag masih berlambak sekaligus menjadikan 2 posts dalam sehari.Sorry ye alin,fatin n abu.Akan datang tag itu.Real soon.Don't worry.

So ayuh mengetag diri sendiri!


How old are you going to be when you get married?

Put an X in every box that applies to you.

Add up all the x`s and title subject with the sum as "My marriage age is__"

[x] You know how to make a pot of coffee
[x] You keep track of dates using a calendar
[ ] You own more than one credit card
[ ] You know how to change the oil in a car
[x] You do your own laundry
[ ] You vote every election
[x] You can cook for yourself
[ ] You think politics are exciting
[x] You balance your own checkbook
[ ] Your parents have better things to say than your friends

Total: 5

[ ] You show up for school/college/work every day early.
[ ] You always carry a pen in your pocket/purse
[ ] You've never gotten a detention
[ ] You have never smoked a cigarette
[ ] You have never gotten completely trashed
[ ] You have forgotten your own birthday at least once
[X] You like to take walks by yourself
[X] You've watched talk shows.
[X] You know what 'credibility' means without looking it up
[ ] You drink coffee[caffiine] at least once a week.

Total: 3

[X] You know how to do the dishes.
[X] You can count to 10 in another language.
[ ] When you say you're going to do something you do it
[ ] My parents trust me
[ ] You can mow the lawn
[x] You can make adults laugh without being stupid
[ ] You remember to water the plants
[X] You study when you have to
[x] You pay attention at school/college
[ ] You remember to feed your pets

Total: 5

[X] You can spell 'experience' without looking it up.
[ ] You work out on a regular basis.
[ ] You clean up your own mess
[ ] The people at StarbucksBakerzin know you by name
[ ] Your favorite kind of food is take out
[X] You have gained weight since middle/high school
[ ] The first thing you do when you wake up is get caffeine
[X] You can go to the store without getting something you don't need
[ ] You understand political jokes the first time they are said
[x] You can type quickly

Total: 4

[ ] You have realized that the weather forecast changes every hour
[ ] Your only friends are from your place of employment
[ ] You have been to a Tupperware party
[ ] You have realized that no one will take you seriously unless you are over the age of 25 and have a job
[ ] You have more bills than you can pay
[ ] Most of all your friends are older than you are
[x] You can say no to staying out all night
[ ] You use the internet every day
[ ] Your wardrobe hasn't changed in a while
[X] You can read a book and actually finish it

Total: 2
GRAND TOTAL: 19
MY MARRIAGE AGE IS:*drumrolls everyone* 19

See..memang nampak sangat lah gatal kan.Tag ni pon memahami i gitu.Awwww~.Tapi i dah book dah date lawa nak kawen.11 december 2013 @ 11.12.13.So cane nih?Kene cari date lawa tahun ni nampaknya.Help me everibodi!!!




ps:Sape gatal sile tag diri sendiri.Jangan malu-malu
pps:Kak ina if ur reading this,sile jangan report kat mama.Pliz pliz pliz.
ppps:Now the title does make sense a bit.Sape dpt tangkap link maya karin dgn kawen tingy memang sah gatal cam i.

hai saya pimp.boleh berkenalan?

got my cbox back!
dont be suprised with my last message.
dated way back in jan i guess.
beliau macam chipsmore.
sekejap ade sekejap tade.

ps:saya gemuk sebab saya bahagia.so?
pps:sape rasmi cbox baru saya belanje baskin robin.betol.tak tipu.gile pathetic woh.

of getting hitched and insanity

Hey people.!

This is my 1678th attempt to update this blog.Betol.Tak tipu.I don't know why but I'm currently not in the mood to update my blog.Maybe sebab masa-masa terluang seharian dipenuhi dengan aktiviti makan-tido-makan-makan or bak kata solehah maybe sebab indah bercinta.pffft.Ayat last tidak ade kene mengena antara yang hidup dan mati.Dah bie dah.Tak payah nak buat ayat innocent dengan muka bimbo I don't know why whatsoever.Ngaku jelah malas.I don't know why *sekali lagi ayat i don't know why* but i think I don't have the urge to tell the whole world what I'm up to and what I've been doing anymore.Maybe the superstar in me is now somewhere in the Himalayas seeking nirvana.tsk.tsk.

And yes esok is the much awaited day.AYUH KEMBALI KE SEKOLAH UOLS!My cuti is finally over.Oh no scratch that.My three weeks short holiday is over.My cuti is the most retardest and spastic-est cuti on Earth.Start lambat and habis awal lalu menjadikan rancangan untuk belajar memasak tergendala lalu rancangan besar untuk demand hantaran tinggi juga terpaksa dilupakan*sigh*.

And i'm soooo looking forward to our trip to Bandung untuk menjadi jutawan dan menyopping baju raya.Sape muke tak malu nak souvenier sile msg.Ye apek dan abu saye tawu anda tak malu.Hahaha.And I might be going to Bali with the girls in December.But have to consider a few things first.My parents will be in Mecca at that time so macam tak eloh lah kan mak bapak beribadah anak meronggeng berpario bercanda di tepian pantai oh lala.And it would be my third vacation for tuoonain.Tapi dah tak leh blah berusaha untuk kurus sebab nak pakai two piece bikini dengan topi koboi macam Bunga Cinta Lestari dengan harapan Ashraf Sinclair tengok lalu ajak kahwin.Yes i have to admit this.Kawen tingy is always on my mind.I mean who doesn't kan?Eh ke memang orang tak pikir pasal kahwin?Ergh whatever.

Erk run outta idea on what to write already.So this is me,signing off.Adios.

nak jugak tempek gambar pose kiyut tak jadi neh.

ps:don't worry about the title.i think posting writing a random title is fun fun fun.It somehow brings out the mysterious me.Rotfl.

of barbies and ponytails..

Are there any supplements or vitamins or drugs for women in pms?Cause I NEED IT SO BAD.I don't know what is wrong with me but i think my mood swing is getting nastier than ever.I know that all the sayangs who are close to me know that i'll be getting all crabby and macam sial when my time of the month is getting near but loves, i hate to treat u this way.Tau lah i pernah post pasal women are better than guys cause women boleh gune excuse she's pms-ing tapi gile tak boleh blah la kalau sampai mati nak gune alasan pms kan.Eh no scratch that.Mane boleh gune sampai mati sebab nanti ade menopause di mana dinding uterus tidak lagi meruntuh.Okay tahniah anda pandai!So untuk memandaikan lagi ayuh buat kire-kire.The average age of menopause is 45,so i have another 26 years to go.Which means I have 26*12=312 cycles to go.Tapi may be less than 312 sebab tolak pregnant ape sume.Lol.Tapi surelah ni akan ditop-up oleh all the tantrums cum peeves cum bugs during that 9 months of pregnancy kan?Dan juge craving yang gile tak sedar diri.Konklusinya,I need help in decelerating the pendulum.Tu je lah nak cakap.Dengan semangat explain one paragraph nak tunjuk rajin.

Oleh sebab tak cukup tunjuk rajin lagi ayuh menempek!

TOP 14 THINGS PMS STANDS FOR:

1.Pass My Shotgun
2.Psychotic Mood Shift
3.Pack My Stuff
4.Permanent Menstrual Syndrome
5.Perpetual Munching Spree
6.Puffy Mid-Section
7.People Make Me Sick
8.Provide Me with Sweets
9.Pardon My Sobbing
10.Pimples May Surface
11.Pass My Sweatpants
12.Pissy Mood Syndrome
13.Plainly Men Suck
14.Who Cares? I'm not in the mood to play this anymore!!

*this is sooooo me kan?*

ps:i had fun being the stupid me tadi.

pps:i wish someone will buy me that abaya.

coz im in love with a girl..

hey sayangs~

Im back on the radar*woots*.it has been nearly a month kan?a marshmallow-y lumpy sweet month for me.how was yours?Im very contented and thankful for everything HE gives me.Alhamdulillah.I was quite busy preparing for my ACCA finals padahal dalam bilik tido je since i was too blind to realised that taking 3 papers is not an easy work for a lazybum like me.YA ALLAH,BIARLAH AZIRAH HASHIM PASS PAPERS DIE.AMIN.See, i know u guys sume berwibawa,suci murni,anggun lagi gojes sampai sanggup doakan i.Mak terharu nyah.LOL.Sila amalkan doa ini so that i can finish my ACCA in a single attempt and grad cepat and kerja cepat and kawen cepat and demand hantaran tinggi dengan cepat.Ngeh3.


So all the weh-banyaknye-jerawat-aku-sebab-stress-nak-exam days are over.To cik farhan*bukan name sebenar* u'll have to wait till dec to count my pimples.Hahahaha.Sebut pasal pimples teringat lawak nipple siti nurhaliza.Adoi,buat malu je.Ok off topic.

Guess what?Dalam masa sebulan ni i managed to berkayak , ice -skating,berikan bakaring di Klang,berpicnic di tasik Shah Alam,dan juge dengan ayu berpicnic di malam hari di padang depan Masjid Shah Alam twice.I'm missing every bit of these except for ice-skating.It was my first time and im proud to say that i nearly cried.Call me a wuss but ice-skating is not my thing ok.There i was with my Cyclops eye bergantung meminta belas berskate dua tiga langkah.Lol. Nevertheless, i managed to get a few friends semasa bergayut dan bergantung di tepi rink. Owh sape kate azirah hashim sombong? *oh apek,aku x gtaw ko aku pegi kayak sebab sure ko bising mcm mak minah sebab ko jeles sebab ko nak kayak dengan sol.wahahaha*


And oh im freaking proud to say im the no 1 fan of Slaughtersoul.I know,you probably think that im outta my mind already.But they are really great plus drummer cum guitarist die wangi.Hahaha.Hey syg so what if u r a metalhead?Do i look like i care?


Okdahmalasayuhtempekgambar.

perempuan retard bersame skate beliau

ko sure syg aku sebab upload gambar gembira kau.

bukti picnic depan masjid

beliau artis.*identiti dirahsiakan*

mencuba memicit jerawat dengan straw

ps:i dont feel like blogging anymore
pps:im still straight.no worries.

sorry TERemo!

hey stalkers~ *ok perasan*

updates seemed soooo tinggi melangit out of reach coz my finals is selangkah(read:2weeks) away and im so busy 'absorbing' all the notes ok tipu!part absorb notes tu tipu!im getting lazier day by day.Im in desperate need of some catalyst or enzymes whatever u called it to get me to be my old rajin self.sekali lagi tipu!takde la rajin sangat.and my friend*a guy* said something like 'wey sape nk kawen ngn ko klo ko malas'.but guess what??tibe-tibe beliau mengonfess bahawa his owh-i-cant-let-u-go-u-are-so-perfect ex gf is lazier than me.so do the maths la.nampak sangat la ko nk kawen ngn aku kan pek?saje jual mahal.hahahahhaha. (note to him:ala baru bape bulan weh xley let go.chill lah.papehal aku jd consultant.)

and i went out with him for dinner just now.not the above him.another him.ok gatal!and I SWEAR NOT TO GO OUT WITH A GUY TO SOMEWHERE SHOWING A FOOTBALL MATCH!Gile neglected woh. Dah la mmg krg kasih syg.He preferred that gabak-oversized-screen over me?Ni i tgh hot lagi ni.What if dah anak 5 bontot besar lori?Sure anda will letak dat screen in front of me kan?Punyelah kate tak minat MU,kipas susah mati Chelsea tapi tengok cam die maen.Nasib baik it wasn't a Chelsea match.Kalau tak memang ade possiblities cik bie balik jalan kaki kan cik farhan? *bukan name sebenar*.But i had fun whenever im with u.Awwww~.Ok sile menggedik di tempat laen.

and i tink my mood swings are crazier than ever.i have the most ribut PMS ever known to mankind.and im late already.i mean it shud have been sumwhere around the 6th tp ni dah macam 10 days later yet still no signs of it coming.Tapi the big problem is,my PMS has a fixed date.I mean since my normal cycle is on the 6th,so my PMS usually started on the 1st.And since die sangat strict macam pakcik bus macan skolah rendah dulu it'll starts on the 1st no matter what.Im not making any sense am i?Whatever.Why am i explaining this eh?Watever sekali lagi.Bottomline,im crankier hormonal day by day thanks to my PMS.Tak pe,hormonal tu sexy kan?EHJVBJGKF!

and as im typing and backspacing on this post,my dear kakak comel texted me telling that it's over between her and him.this him is not the same as the other two hims above ok.i feel like cursing.FUCK!She loves him so freaking damn crazy pig much!How could he do this to her?Die lawa,baik,pandai.Ape lagi ko nak weh?Kau bagi hopes,janji macam-macam,tibe-tibe kau bagi excuse cakap she's the reason why kau tak ley concentrate ape sume.Die paham kan?Die back off kan?Die support kau no matter what.And malam ni kau buat lawak mintak die jadi consultant for u to get the other girl.Aku tak taw nak panggil kau ape weh.What goes around comes around weh.Sile jangan mensialkan kawan saya.Nasib baek i didnt have the chance to know him.(note to her:wey ingat what happened in vegas x?ingat tak the time dat gurl punched dat jerk who dumped her bestfriend's balls?siyesly i want to do that to him.bagi la izin weh!tak pe weh.apek still nak kau.aku taw.kan apek?walaupun sebenar dalam hati kau nak kawen ngn aku,kau tetap sayang sol kan?hahahaha)



ps:pardon me cursing and fucking.this is not normal me.
pps:sile doakan cycle saye back to normal.sekian.
ppps:happy teacher's day!tak.cikgu saye tak ajar mencarut.

tagged by abu

saya tak suge tag ni.tapi sebab abu peminat setia kipas susah mati saye,saye korbankan.weh abu terharulah!hahahaha.

1)What are u doing right now?
= online window shopping.

2) Where is your cell phone?
= tepi nih.

3) How many blogger account do you have?
= only 1 blogger.hv 1 wordpress too.

4) What's your current relationship status?
= widower

5) Are you happy today?
= u bet i am!nothing beats 'berjemur di tengah padang'.lol

6) Who will cut and paste this first?
= abu la kot.

7) Someone with the same birthday as you?
= afnan kaberi.bf time kecik dulu.ehe

8) Are you mean?
= sure am.sometimes.

9) Have you ever sang in front of a large audience?
= karaoke jamban dikirekah?

10) Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
= ramai.eh muke u macam fazura.eh u macam catriona ross.eh u macam cristina ricci.

11) Current song you're listening to?
= all that i've got-the used

12) Is your birthday on a holiday?
= nope

13) Have you ever been rushed to the emergency room?
= never

LAST:
14) Person who texted you..
= kak ain bulat

15) Talk on the phone..
= paan sembelih

16) Hugged..
= yaza

17) Person you text messaged
= kak ain

18) Person you take pictures with
= ayah

19) You kissed
= sol

TONIGHT:
20) Where are you going?
= katil

21) With?
= abu raihan.hahahaha.x2.

22) What are you going to do there?
= tido la wey

TOMORROW:
23) What are your plans?
= the curve.paan sile get my hint.

24) Dislikes about tomorrow?
= i'll keep on sneezing like hell

25) Did last night?
= study law.eceh

CURRENTLY:
26) Thinking about someone?
= no

27) Missing someone?
= not someone.something.swedish meatball.

28) Current mood?
= craving swedish meatball

29) Longing for?
= bebola daging sweden

30) Are you listening to music?
= duh.

31) Had anyone sing or play music for you personally?
= yes.like always.haha.

32) Forgive anyone who did you wrong the previous day?
= depends.but mostly not on the next dat.maybe neeeeexxxtt day

33) What do people call you?
= bie*bu aku sero mmg jodoh kite dh.name dekat.rofl*

34) Has anyone ever told you they like you more than a friend?
= ade la jugak

35) Name one cute celebrity..
= azirah hashim.ok vain

36) Who do you like to spend your days with?
= tengok mood

37) Favorite ice-cream?
= pralines n cream.jom br weh.

38) Do you believe that everything happens for a reason?
= yes

39) What's the weirdest thing you've heated up in the microwave?
= roti canai?taw.tak pelik pon.

40) Do you fall for people easily?
= yup.*gile yakin jawab*

41) Anything more you want to say?
= letih weh

42) Choose 5 person to answer this survey :
sy blogger tamak tidak suke mengetag orang.tapi memandangkan abu sangat tandus tag.tag die balik.weh abu aku tag mu nie!

girl power!!rawr~

hey sayangs~
flickr.com



I've just joined the PROUD TO BE A WOMAN group in facebook.So since i have nothing to do im effing proud to be a woman,this is my attempt to list all the reasons why being a woman is so freaking euphoric and orgasmic.ehe.








1.boleh badmood dan sulky bile-bile mase.bile dah ok dengan muke innocent 'sorry lah.I PMS.'

2.boleh rase cane rase ditendang dari dalam.eleh laki setakat kena tendang dari luar dah kecoh. (oh the baby is kicking*pegang perot*)

3.tak payah tunggu duit cukup nak kahwin.

4.boleh cium pipi perempuan lain tanpa dicop bernafsu sonsang macam yang tomok and awal kene.

5.boleh makan banyak and cakap 'I makan banyak sebab period.Penat nak produce hemoglobin baru.Selalu makan sikit je'.Pffft

6.ade cuti khas tiap-tiap bulan.

7.cuti bersalin dua bulan dibayar gaji.

8.ade saying 'behind a man's success there's a woman'.nampak sangat lah guys are nothing without us kan.btw quote 'behind a woman's success there's a man' sangatlah bapok bunyinye.

9.boleh pakai baju kelawar*ni tiru from ili.ehe*

10.kalau kereta penuh dengan laki rosak tepi jalan,amek mase dalam 30 jam baru ade orang tolong.kalau perempuan je tak payah tunggu lame-lame.

11.boleh ponteng class and gune alasan 'Sorry mam,i period pain semalam'.

12.Boleh mintak MC senang-senang sebab period pain doc xley check.*gosh gile banyak advantanges bende ni*

13.mostly hantu perempuan.nampak sangat us women are more powerful than u guys.

14.ade ladies' nite.save duit.guys' nite tak wujud.

15.tak payah salam dengan tok kadi.hanya perlu bersimpuh ayu dan menangis bile dah sah jadi bini orang.wargh!

16.wonderwoman tak pakai spender kat luar macam superman.

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sile penuhkan kerana saya perlu ke kelas.wahahahaha.tak ni bukan cover line sebab takde idea.betol.


ps:been id check-ed when watching 'coming soon'.oh bangge!nampak sangat mak awet mude nyah~

rants~

I'm not feeling 'oh-bie-memang-hebat' now.Why?Cause i've just noticed that on the scale of 1 to 10,my understanding and grasp on F5 Performance Management is -3.And my anxiety leads to a super craving of megi kari telor tapi telor kuning tak masak sangat.Syok wohh!Tapi mane nak cari telur tengah-tengah malam ni.Ade lah sorang perwira dalam baju besi ni yang nak masakkan tapi sure lah dah tak dapat nak bagi coz pak guard uitm sure jeles dengan baju besi beliau.Atau mungkin pak guard itu membuat konklusi sendiri cik perwira mahu menghantar telurnya kepada saya.Hahahahaha.Kawan-kawan sedar tak itu satu lawak lucah? *perlukah tanye weh?!*

Back to pasal malas belajar.I texted a few of my friends saying how darn afraid i am of the coming exam.Takot je la lebih,bukan nak start belajar betol-betol pon.Typical melayu bie la tuh.Most of them said tak pe,solat hajat banyak-banyak,mintak dengan Allah.Ok maybe betol.Tapi aku tak leh aplikasi konsep ni lagi lah!Sebab aku tak berusaha lagi.Korang dah salah konsep tawakal ni weyh!We are supposed to put our heart basket*gile translate doe* in everything we do plus mintak doa.Ni doa je susah la wey.Ok sekian tazkirah pagi dari *coughs*ustazah azirah.

Whatever it is,i know that my life will be great-one way or another.And i know yours will be great too.If life gives u lemon,just make lemon cheesecake la dey.






ps:dah craving cheesecake pulak.pregnant nanti mati lah laki aku.

BEWARE:MIXED FEELINGS ENTRY

hello loves!

have i mentioned that i love myself so much that i want to kiss smooch smooch chuphs muahs me own self?my life definitely could get better.but hey i am loving every nanoseconds of me being azirah hashim to bits.ok sorry vain.pffft.

nothing much happened though.except for my daily routine of sleeping at 5a.m,missed subuh kadang-kadang,study 5mins then TERdozed off.Seriously i need to work my arse harder if i want to finish my ACCA by next year.but don't u think that world would be a better place to live in if ALL EXAMS ARE DEMOLISHED.Best kan?Dah boleh buat tagline pon ade.Konon lah alien tanya 'where are u from?'.Answer:'I'm from Earth,WHERE ALL THE EXAMS ARE DEMOLISHED.'Super coolness bukan.Ok please put my foot in my mouth to stop me from keeping on blabbering and buat lawak tak berapa pandai.

i texted my mom.'Mama,tlg doakan bie biar rajin sikit.'Being the supermom she is,cepat je reply.Ayuh teka apa mama saya reply?No no sume salah*perasan ada orang tengah teka*.This is what i got.

'Braso malas ko loni?InsyaAllah.Selama ni mama doakan kejayaan, jadi anak yang soleh, lembut tutur kata, lembut budi bahasa, hormati orang tak kira pangkat. Bab nak suroh rajin ni kena tambah malam ni.'*ayt ini tidak mengalami proses pengubahsuaian*

Mama,i know i am not the perfect daughter that u wish u have.But thanks for everything.Thanks mama.Thanks ayah.Mama carry bie for 9months,mama deliver bie,mama jaga bie,breastfeed bie,ayah beli dress lawa,ayah mandikan and dressed me up for school every freaking morning,nasihat bie tapi bie tak dengar and millions of other things that u've done to and for me.What am i thinking to list it all?Infinity tu.I'll try to be the daughter that u longed to have.I promise ma,ayah.For every single thing i've done,IM SORRY.I know u and ayah will be prouder if bie tak sombong and keras hati sangat kan?I'll try mama.I'll try ayah.Im sorry u have to put up with this azirah hashim for the past 19 years.

ps:Owh shit im crying.dah.tadi lawak bodoh sangat.ni kang dah nangis.padan muka kau!I should be studying.I know.chownaknangesjapthensambungstudybai.

pps:alhamdulillah sedar kan?sedar time mama and ayah dah tak de ape nak buat?nanges air mata darah pon tak guna.nauzubillah.

NEW ME..

I've just realised that most of my posts are bitter and cynical.And that reflects one thing,me AZIRAH HASHIM IS A VERY BITTER PERSON!Bitter,pessimistic,sulky Azirah.And yes i hate myself for that.

For all this while i only looked at the downsides of life.Only enjoying my 'on-top-of-the-world' moments once in a while,not appreciating my sweet life,and complaining and complaining and complaining.Why me?Why is she better than me?Why this and why that.

From now on,i'll live my live positively.Viewing the world,the life and my own self from another perspective.Treating others nicer,being grateful for every single things i have and sip all the bliss and pleasure of life while i can.Maybe i was blind for this 19 years,but hey it is still not too late to change and i know this change will make me a better person.And i need it so bad.


So hello to the new ME!


ps:im enjoying my life now.cheers to a wonderful beginning and the great journey ahead.

hush little girl

credit to www.flikcr.com

hush

don't u cry

shed away the tears

get rid of the sorrow inside

thump it,shed it,dash it

to tiny minuscule pieces

don't let it lingers on someone else

hush

don't u cry

shiny tomorrows await

the sun will be smiling from up above

stroking u with the smoothest yet uplifting vibes

the stars will be your guardians throught the deepest pits

the waves will crush all your sadness away from the shore of your life

and the rain will waters your barren paths

hush

don't u cry

rise up

feels the ever so fresh dewdrops

spreads the joy as the dandelions fly away

explore the creeks of chances

delve into the meadows of hope

where the fairies will wrap u with tenderness

so hush little girl

shed away the tears

ps:i think sadness disturbance brings out the writing mojo in me.pffft*sile benarkan org sedih nak perasan*

my body is a wonderland...

Cik bie went to dorothy perkins
dah nampak dh ade budak ni tengah maen nyorok dengan akak die.
akak die pon xde la akak sangat.
budak 2 orang ni umur lebih kurang je
dalam 4 5 tahun.
frust jugak dlm hati.
dulu cik bie maen nyorok celah tiang.
tu pon xjd nyorok sebab cik bie sehat,tiang slim *isk*
tapi mereka?
maen nyorok celah jeans.
argh persetankan semua itu.
cik bie melihat jeans yang chomel
terase mau menery (men+try=menery)
masuk la cik bie dlm fitting room
tp fitting room die xde pintu
hanya curtain sebagai pengganti diri pintu
maka tidak layaklah dipanggil sebagai room
fitting cubicle eloklah juga
cik bie menyarung jeans itu
setelah menery,membelek,menyapu,membelai
setelah memusing depan,kiri,kanan
setelah puas terasa diri sangat gojes
cik bie menanggalkan jeans itu
*SREEEET*
!@#%& budak ni(suara latar:budak 2 ekor gelak2)



ps:cik bie tidak akn mendedahkan ape sebenarnye yang berlaku selepas bunyi tersebut
pps:ini bukan entri lucah.

why now?damn!

i miss u.

shit.

this is crappy!

before this i would give anything to forget u

just to get rid all of our tangled memories

i needed the strength to resist u

i needed the power to say NO for once and all

i needed to say 'u are with her now.please stop giving me hopes.go away'

but now,

after much hardworks and tears,

i'm dying to see u.

yes im a stupid little person who's still in love with you.

so little that u can barely see me.

the unexpected..

when i was in form five,i did not have any interest in accounting.except maybe for guy from the accounting class who was my bf back then*but he turned out to be dat 'hello-get-away-from-my-gurl' jerk*.honestly,i looked down on the accounting students because they did not have to memorize all the valves,the processes and the 'konon cool' terms of biology.basically,they were confirmed to get an A for accounting.

but look at me now.the girl who once looked down on accounting students and the accounting itself is now loving every bit of her moments studying ACCA.yes,there were times when i thought that MARA wasn't being fair to me,they failed to see my potential.but i determined to make them see that i can shine in everything.i was always being told that i don't have anything to worry and that did made me a little big-headed and ignorant.but that MARA interview was a wake-up call where i found that the easy ride had ended.

i cried myself almost everynight,blaming myself for everything,envying my friends.i don't know why i was so filled with loathe.i applied for TESL in that MARA interview but i was offered to do ACCA locally.i knew that i can't teach*thanks to my temper*.i applied for TESL because of my passion in English.and all the other courses offered were not to my liking.there were a few of my friends who went 'oh,i thought u wud be on the first plane out of malaysia' yada yada yada.but no mate.im stuck in malaysia.

i chucked my teachers.Miss Eisha and Miss Intan.they have been supporting me since i was in lipis but i decided to get away from them because for me, i failed to fulfiled their expectations.shallow sangat kan.?they were always there when i needed someone.a definite shoulder to carry on.they taught me how to fly and soar the limitless sky.they didn't looked at me in disgust like everyone else were back then in lipis.if it weren't because of them,i'm sure i couldn't survived my years in lipis.

TO MISS EISHA AND MISS INTAN IF U ARE READING:

Thanks for bringing out the best in me,for seeing my little potential and believing in me.

but now everything is perfect.almost perfect at least.doing ACCA is not bad at all.im enjoying it so much.accounting is not that easy.i wonder what would happened to me if im still stuck in the misery that drowned me away from reality.a few days ago,i met a lecturer who taught me last sem.she said 'from the very first class,i knew that u'll do great'.im grateful for everything.syukur alhamdulillah.HE knows what is the best for me.and for all this while,i was blind.and now,im among one of the high achievers.and i'll be forever grateful to all the people i met along the way.thank you so very much.




ps:im not going to the dinner to receive the award.kami otai tak join dinner noobs.aha.