rants~

I'm not feeling 'oh-bie-memang-hebat' now.Why?Cause i've just noticed that on the scale of 1 to 10,my understanding and grasp on F5 Performance Management is -3.And my anxiety leads to a super craving of megi kari telor tapi telor kuning tak masak sangat.Syok wohh!Tapi mane nak cari telur tengah-tengah malam ni.Ade lah sorang perwira dalam baju besi ni yang nak masakkan tapi sure lah dah tak dapat nak bagi coz pak guard uitm sure jeles dengan baju besi beliau.Atau mungkin pak guard itu membuat konklusi sendiri cik perwira mahu menghantar telurnya kepada saya.Hahahahaha.Kawan-kawan sedar tak itu satu lawak lucah? *perlukah tanye weh?!*

Back to pasal malas belajar.I texted a few of my friends saying how darn afraid i am of the coming exam.Takot je la lebih,bukan nak start belajar betol-betol pon.Typical melayu bie la tuh.Most of them said tak pe,solat hajat banyak-banyak,mintak dengan Allah.Ok maybe betol.Tapi aku tak leh aplikasi konsep ni lagi lah!Sebab aku tak berusaha lagi.Korang dah salah konsep tawakal ni weyh!We are supposed to put our heart basket*gile translate doe* in everything we do plus mintak doa.Ni doa je susah la wey.Ok sekian tazkirah pagi dari *coughs*ustazah azirah.

Whatever it is,i know that my life will be great-one way or another.And i know yours will be great too.If life gives u lemon,just make lemon cheesecake la dey.






ps:dah craving cheesecake pulak.pregnant nanti mati lah laki aku.

BEWARE:MIXED FEELINGS ENTRY

hello loves!

have i mentioned that i love myself so much that i want to kiss smooch smooch chuphs muahs me own self?my life definitely could get better.but hey i am loving every nanoseconds of me being azirah hashim to bits.ok sorry vain.pffft.

nothing much happened though.except for my daily routine of sleeping at 5a.m,missed subuh kadang-kadang,study 5mins then TERdozed off.Seriously i need to work my arse harder if i want to finish my ACCA by next year.but don't u think that world would be a better place to live in if ALL EXAMS ARE DEMOLISHED.Best kan?Dah boleh buat tagline pon ade.Konon lah alien tanya 'where are u from?'.Answer:'I'm from Earth,WHERE ALL THE EXAMS ARE DEMOLISHED.'Super coolness bukan.Ok please put my foot in my mouth to stop me from keeping on blabbering and buat lawak tak berapa pandai.

i texted my mom.'Mama,tlg doakan bie biar rajin sikit.'Being the supermom she is,cepat je reply.Ayuh teka apa mama saya reply?No no sume salah*perasan ada orang tengah teka*.This is what i got.

'Braso malas ko loni?InsyaAllah.Selama ni mama doakan kejayaan, jadi anak yang soleh, lembut tutur kata, lembut budi bahasa, hormati orang tak kira pangkat. Bab nak suroh rajin ni kena tambah malam ni.'*ayt ini tidak mengalami proses pengubahsuaian*

Mama,i know i am not the perfect daughter that u wish u have.But thanks for everything.Thanks mama.Thanks ayah.Mama carry bie for 9months,mama deliver bie,mama jaga bie,breastfeed bie,ayah beli dress lawa,ayah mandikan and dressed me up for school every freaking morning,nasihat bie tapi bie tak dengar and millions of other things that u've done to and for me.What am i thinking to list it all?Infinity tu.I'll try to be the daughter that u longed to have.I promise ma,ayah.For every single thing i've done,IM SORRY.I know u and ayah will be prouder if bie tak sombong and keras hati sangat kan?I'll try mama.I'll try ayah.Im sorry u have to put up with this azirah hashim for the past 19 years.

ps:Owh shit im crying.dah.tadi lawak bodoh sangat.ni kang dah nangis.padan muka kau!I should be studying.I know.chownaknangesjapthensambungstudybai.

pps:alhamdulillah sedar kan?sedar time mama and ayah dah tak de ape nak buat?nanges air mata darah pon tak guna.nauzubillah.

NEW ME..

I've just realised that most of my posts are bitter and cynical.And that reflects one thing,me AZIRAH HASHIM IS A VERY BITTER PERSON!Bitter,pessimistic,sulky Azirah.And yes i hate myself for that.

For all this while i only looked at the downsides of life.Only enjoying my 'on-top-of-the-world' moments once in a while,not appreciating my sweet life,and complaining and complaining and complaining.Why me?Why is she better than me?Why this and why that.

From now on,i'll live my live positively.Viewing the world,the life and my own self from another perspective.Treating others nicer,being grateful for every single things i have and sip all the bliss and pleasure of life while i can.Maybe i was blind for this 19 years,but hey it is still not too late to change and i know this change will make me a better person.And i need it so bad.


So hello to the new ME!


ps:im enjoying my life now.cheers to a wonderful beginning and the great journey ahead.