ps: Her dress is ah-mazing.
Saturday, October 15, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
From kota bharu to old klang road
How was your raya? Mine was ok but i still can't accept the fact that i'm ineligible to receive duit raya anymore. Cries.
Being at home brings me closer to my late daddy. When i first entered their room, his smell still lingered as if he was still around. Felt like i needed a reality check. Broke down and cried on his side of the bed rightaway. His grave is like a knock in the head, waking me up to my senses. Nangis lagi since this is the first time i'm home since March.
And this raya jugak la i received tons of when's your turn? For marriage obviously. I'm a 21 years old hormone-driven-hopeless-romantic lady. Jangan tanya boleh? Kan dah buat i pressured nak cari a companion. Facepalm. But hold your rein as i know that now is not the time to look after a boyfriend dah. Ni masa mencari calon suami who can guide me to the right path, who accepts me the way i am. I want 'us' to be like Ayah and Mama. Cinta sampai akhir hayat. There were a fee occasions where people asked Mama dah ade pengganti or not. I can't understand why people could be so insensitive. Urgh. But her answer brought me to tears every single time. 'Takkan ada pengganti dia'. And by this point people would realised that they have been an insensitive cow.
The first two paragraphs was written when i was still in kb and im not rajin enough to edit it. That explains the title yeh. Oh people, my birthday is in 4 days now!
Being at home brings me closer to my late daddy. When i first entered their room, his smell still lingered as if he was still around. Felt like i needed a reality check. Broke down and cried on his side of the bed rightaway. His grave is like a knock in the head, waking me up to my senses. Nangis lagi since this is the first time i'm home since March.
And this raya jugak la i received tons of when's your turn? For marriage obviously. I'm a 21 years old hormone-driven-hopeless-romantic lady. Jangan tanya boleh? Kan dah buat i pressured nak cari a companion. Facepalm. But hold your rein as i know that now is not the time to look after a boyfriend dah. Ni masa mencari calon suami who can guide me to the right path, who accepts me the way i am. I want 'us' to be like Ayah and Mama. Cinta sampai akhir hayat. There were a fee occasions where people asked Mama dah ade pengganti or not. I can't understand why people could be so insensitive. Urgh. But her answer brought me to tears every single time. 'Takkan ada pengganti dia'. And by this point people would realised that they have been an insensitive cow.
The first two paragraphs was written when i was still in kb and im not rajin enough to edit it. That explains the title yeh. Oh people, my birthday is in 4 days now!
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
It has been a year.pejam celik pejam celik.i used to say i dont know how to live my days after he's gone.tapi now dah a year dah pun.
I miss u daddy.it has been ages since i last cried cause of u.i mean the sobbing punye nangis.masa baca yassin tadi laju je air mata.how i wish u were still here with us.
Since i've been working,dh jarang baca yassin.balik rumah dah penat,kejar benda duniawi tengok fb and tumblr then terus tido.the cycle repeats tomorrow.mungkin hati dah jadi keras.rindu memang rindu.all the time.tapi the tears dont shed anymore.harini rasa dekat sangat to u ayoh.
I still remember when i complained how hard the paper was and u said u are proud of me no matter what.how i wish u could see me now and tell me the same thing.i really need that.
Al-fatihah.
I miss u daddy.it has been ages since i last cried cause of u.i mean the sobbing punye nangis.masa baca yassin tadi laju je air mata.how i wish u were still here with us.
Since i've been working,dh jarang baca yassin.balik rumah dah penat,kejar benda duniawi tengok fb and tumblr then terus tido.the cycle repeats tomorrow.mungkin hati dah jadi keras.rindu memang rindu.all the time.tapi the tears dont shed anymore.harini rasa dekat sangat to u ayoh.
I still remember when i complained how hard the paper was and u said u are proud of me no matter what.how i wish u could see me now and tell me the same thing.i really need that.
Al-fatihah.
Wednesday, June 22, 2011
Money money money
Lets' talk bout money. Without money, u can die but too much of it can kill u.
Money 1
Being a career woman *super puke*, i now know how hard it is to get RM1. Yelah, everything have to bayar using my OWN money. Bayar tu bayar ni hulur situ hulur sini, end of month dah terkorek duit. Last month, i only had RM20 in my purse and i had to take a cab to a client's place. Tau saje lah taking a cab in KL macam mana. But before hailing the cab, i tawakal pergi atm check duit. I never felt richer. It wasn't even 28th yet tapi alhamdulillah gaji dah masuk. HE is always there for me.
Money 2
Did u know that an engineer in Medan only gets around 300 usd per month? That's like what, 1/3 of Malaysian engineer punya gaji? Count your blessing everyone. Yes,we can argue that the cost of living in Indonesia is cheaper yada yada yada but,their value is only worth of that? Duit ni if we keep on saying tak cukup la, memang tak akan cukup *i'm guilty of this jugak*. I pergi interview kakak cleaner, she said she get RM900 every month and sometimes she has to come at 7 and leave at 7 u know! Kalah auditor. Terus i insaf kejap cause i ni balik lambat pun duduk je hadap computer, got aircond somemore.
Money 3
Last night i went to pasar malam with my mom. She went to buy some ikan while i pergi beli air. Then when i met her she said the fishmonger tu claimed that my mom gave him duit palsu. I check la the money and memang it was fake pun. Macam normal kertas u print out as duit and buruk sangat sampai i pegang terus koyak in the middle. Come on la, takkan la mama nak bagi that money kan? Kita tau adat, ade sivik and i know that my mom's duit memang fresh from atm cause we baru withdraw. But the guy said my mom was the last customer and tu her duit. So mama just said ' makcik boleh ganti tapi tuhan tahu' qnd hand him another 50. I dengar tu pun i almost nangis, tak tengok live lagi. Why la have to be like that? Lapar duit sangat ke? I felt like shoving the fishes into their asses but mama said 'kita rugi 50, insyaAllah dapat 150'. Amin. And i just hope they will get sleepless nights. Asyik nampak muka my mom cakap tuhan tahu. Amin.
On a lighter note, how la nak jadi fashionable ni? I la paling sopan pergi office with baju kurung every day. I look hideous in suit * nangia ceruk dinding*
Ok la bye loves!
Money 1
Being a career woman *super puke*, i now know how hard it is to get RM1. Yelah, everything have to bayar using my OWN money. Bayar tu bayar ni hulur situ hulur sini, end of month dah terkorek duit. Last month, i only had RM20 in my purse and i had to take a cab to a client's place. Tau saje lah taking a cab in KL macam mana. But before hailing the cab, i tawakal pergi atm check duit. I never felt richer. It wasn't even 28th yet tapi alhamdulillah gaji dah masuk. HE is always there for me.
Money 2
Did u know that an engineer in Medan only gets around 300 usd per month? That's like what, 1/3 of Malaysian engineer punya gaji? Count your blessing everyone. Yes,we can argue that the cost of living in Indonesia is cheaper yada yada yada but,their value is only worth of that? Duit ni if we keep on saying tak cukup la, memang tak akan cukup *i'm guilty of this jugak*. I pergi interview kakak cleaner, she said she get RM900 every month and sometimes she has to come at 7 and leave at 7 u know! Kalah auditor. Terus i insaf kejap cause i ni balik lambat pun duduk je hadap computer, got aircond somemore.
Money 3
Last night i went to pasar malam with my mom. She went to buy some ikan while i pergi beli air. Then when i met her she said the fishmonger tu claimed that my mom gave him duit palsu. I check la the money and memang it was fake pun. Macam normal kertas u print out as duit and buruk sangat sampai i pegang terus koyak in the middle. Come on la, takkan la mama nak bagi that money kan? Kita tau adat, ade sivik and i know that my mom's duit memang fresh from atm cause we baru withdraw. But the guy said my mom was the last customer and tu her duit. So mama just said ' makcik boleh ganti tapi tuhan tahu' qnd hand him another 50. I dengar tu pun i almost nangis, tak tengok live lagi. Why la have to be like that? Lapar duit sangat ke? I felt like shoving the fishes into their asses but mama said 'kita rugi 50, insyaAllah dapat 150'. Amin. And i just hope they will get sleepless nights. Asyik nampak muka my mom cakap tuhan tahu. Amin.
On a lighter note, how la nak jadi fashionable ni? I la paling sopan pergi office with baju kurung every day. I look hideous in suit * nangia ceruk dinding*
Ok la bye loves!
Saturday, June 4, 2011
Wednesday, June 1, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Life so far.
I am now a confirmed employee!weeho.and with that comes a greater responsibility for me to carry.but no complaints or whatsoever because this is what i wanted.i remembered telling one of my friend 'kalau tak dapat big 4 aku tak nak kerja'.Alhamdulillah i managed to my dream job without using any strings ke cable ke.yelah my parents are nobody pun.mana ada contact nak mintak tolong.i guess He thinks that last year was a bit tough for me and He granted my doa for a great job.But he has yet to grant my doa for the best jodoh.haha.
I attended my graduation last week.we were all dolled up perasan comel.alhamdulillah i've managed to complete my ACCA in 2 years.tho twas a merry event,i wished ayoh was there.it was an emotional rollercoaster for me.as much as i loved to see my friends,to get on the stage,to be pretty,deep inside im crying.how i wished ayoh was there.at one point i couldn't stand the longing for him,i cried.i miss him dearly.and the speech from the vice chancellor wasn't really helping when he talked about some of the unfortunate graduates yang their parents couldn't attend the ceremony and i felt like the 567743 pairs of eyes in the hall were looking at me tho they weren't.how i wish i could be stronger.
Oh crap.i was intending to write on my work and how cute the Khazanah's guy i met last week tapi termenangis again.not good not good.lets recite Al-Fatihah to my daddy and maybe your daddy,or mommy and to all of our beloved ones who are no longer with us.Al-fatihah.
This is my first time blogging via my smartphone. ceh perlu ke mention smartphone. Haha. I hadiahkan diri sendiri sebab nak mintak dengan my mom mestilah tak dapat. I'd have uploaded my graduation pic if i know how. Tapi i noob mestilah tak tahu tho dah 2 months guna this phone.
Okthanksbye.
I attended my graduation last week.we were all dolled up perasan comel.alhamdulillah i've managed to complete my ACCA in 2 years.tho twas a merry event,i wished ayoh was there.it was an emotional rollercoaster for me.as much as i loved to see my friends,to get on the stage,to be pretty,deep inside im crying.how i wished ayoh was there.at one point i couldn't stand the longing for him,i cried.i miss him dearly.and the speech from the vice chancellor wasn't really helping when he talked about some of the unfortunate graduates yang their parents couldn't attend the ceremony and i felt like the 567743 pairs of eyes in the hall were looking at me tho they weren't.how i wish i could be stronger.
Oh crap.i was intending to write on my work and how cute the Khazanah's guy i met last week tapi termenangis again.not good not good.lets recite Al-Fatihah to my daddy and maybe your daddy,or mommy and to all of our beloved ones who are no longer with us.Al-fatihah.
This is my first time blogging via my smartphone. ceh perlu ke mention smartphone. Haha. I hadiahkan diri sendiri sebab nak mintak dengan my mom mestilah tak dapat. I'd have uploaded my graduation pic if i know how. Tapi i noob mestilah tak tahu tho dah 2 months guna this phone.
Okthanksbye.
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