to hell la with the looks..

Honestly,i do judge people based on their looks.I know.Kejam amat.Who am i to judge?Miss world?Miss Universe?And i don't even think that those girls are like me.A few months back,i've hurt a guy because i think he's not up to my so-called-standard-of-a-dream-guy.Damn man.He's nice.Uber nice.Amat sweet coz dat was his first time getting to know a girl.And i was so cruel.Suke ati je nk moody,nk emo and threw it all on him.I pitied him.Seyesly.But i dunno wat was i thinking till dis day.Hopefully he's still straight and there will be an angel for him.Not me.ARE YOU GOOD ENOUGH BIE??No,u don't.So please,stop judging coz people are all the same in the eyes of HIM.
Few days ago,i know dis guy.A friend of a friend.He's a great guy.Im trying not to judge him whatsoever.I have to say that we are having some sort of special bond.Is it because we both are vulnerable?I don't know.But i missed this feelings.Frigging missing it.Have u ever feel so berbunge-bunge inside..u feel like flying..even a simple sms from him can make u smile?Well,dat's me now.I wake up everyday and he's on my mind.And how i hope he feels the same way too.Tapi...I dunno why...Apik told me to give him a pass coz i can score a better guy.I cried because of dat.I HATE apik for saying dat.Tapi i know dat he wants the best for me.Tapi he's the guy who told me not to judge others.Tah la.A bit in a dilemma now.Is he dat bad?Even if he is,i think dat i don't care.I like him as the way he is.Am i rushing this??I think i am.Tapi he makes me feel so...ME.I dont even know how to describe it.I'm not talking bout all this lovey dovey,holding hands,i love u u love me stuff.It's about the tale of the heart.I want someone to care bout me.And i think he does.I hope that he does.And know i hate this judging thingy.Who are we?Truth be told there is no fixed criteria of someone who is good-looking,someone hot,someone ugly.It's all in us.In me.The 'bullshitlity' is in us.And how i wish i could get rid of it.So i can treat someone way better.I know this is going nowhere.