the unexpected..

when i was in form five,i did not have any interest in accounting.except maybe for guy from the accounting class who was my bf back then*but he turned out to be dat 'hello-get-away-from-my-gurl' jerk*.honestly,i looked down on the accounting students because they did not have to memorize all the valves,the processes and the 'konon cool' terms of biology.basically,they were confirmed to get an A for accounting.

but look at me now.the girl who once looked down on accounting students and the accounting itself is now loving every bit of her moments studying ACCA.yes,there were times when i thought that MARA wasn't being fair to me,they failed to see my potential.but i determined to make them see that i can shine in everything.i was always being told that i don't have anything to worry and that did made me a little big-headed and ignorant.but that MARA interview was a wake-up call where i found that the easy ride had ended.

i cried myself almost everynight,blaming myself for everything,envying my friends.i don't know why i was so filled with loathe.i applied for TESL in that MARA interview but i was offered to do ACCA locally.i knew that i can't teach*thanks to my temper*.i applied for TESL because of my passion in English.and all the other courses offered were not to my liking.there were a few of my friends who went 'oh,i thought u wud be on the first plane out of malaysia' yada yada yada.but no mate.im stuck in malaysia.

i chucked my teachers.Miss Eisha and Miss Intan.they have been supporting me since i was in lipis but i decided to get away from them because for me, i failed to fulfiled their expectations.shallow sangat kan.?they were always there when i needed someone.a definite shoulder to carry on.they taught me how to fly and soar the limitless sky.they didn't looked at me in disgust like everyone else were back then in lipis.if it weren't because of them,i'm sure i couldn't survived my years in lipis.

TO MISS EISHA AND MISS INTAN IF U ARE READING:

Thanks for bringing out the best in me,for seeing my little potential and believing in me.

but now everything is perfect.almost perfect at least.doing ACCA is not bad at all.im enjoying it so much.accounting is not that easy.i wonder what would happened to me if im still stuck in the misery that drowned me away from reality.a few days ago,i met a lecturer who taught me last sem.she said 'from the very first class,i knew that u'll do great'.im grateful for everything.syukur alhamdulillah.HE knows what is the best for me.and for all this while,i was blind.and now,im among one of the high achievers.and i'll be forever grateful to all the people i met along the way.thank you so very much.




ps:im not going to the dinner to receive the award.kami otai tak join dinner noobs.aha.