dalam dingin subuh...

I've made 1786 desperate attempt to update this blog and none managed to overcome the excessive 'backspac-ing'.Darn! Am I getting duller day by day as much as I'm getting fatter?Blergh.Hope not.Well ramadhan is over.And so does syawal tho syawal is a month long.But the much awaited 1st sywal is poof-ed already!There goes the year long excitement.All the hustle of thinking which baju to wear,kaler ape sume dah takde.Yang ade are all the damn fattening foods that will stay at my waist.As I grow older,I've realised that how raya is nothing different than any other days sebab duit raya dah kurang.When i was younger,Raya is the time of the year when Azirah Hashim will be extremely rajin helping out dengan harapan nak duit raya lebih.Hahaha.Tapi sekarang tak lagi.No.Bukan sekarang tak rajin.Sekarang AZIRAH IS STILL RAJIN without needing the 'motivation'.

On pagi raya,I tengok la siaran langsung Sembahyang Raya dekat RTM tu since since my period cycle mereng xleh tunggu 1 more day.Tapi i sakit hati lagi annoyed tengok tu.WHY?Coz all the jemaah had to wait for YDPA and PM dulu before they can perform their solat aidilfitri.And the two fellas came with all the 'big guy' escorts dengan red carpet lagi nasib baik takde pulut kuning,bungga manggar and kompang.I admit that I'm a bit shallow in Islam tapi kita kan serupa di sisi-Nya.The only difference is iman and taqwa right?So i memang tak berkenan with this practice.Biarlah the leaders and the rakyats get the same treatment in masjids.Tak payah la nak tunggu ape sume.Macam ajal maut jodoh pertemuan.Ade die tunggu anybody?Takde kan.Kate 1Malaysia kan?.Isk stop.Nanti masuk bab politic pulak.

Rase tak bile besar,lagi kecik rase raya tu?As in dah tak ter'excited' sangat.Poyo la kan tak excited padahal baju raya 4 pasang pon still nak tambah.Dush!My point is,when we were kids semue excited terlompat-lompat bile tengok pengisytiharan raya then bila malam memang tidur tak lena takut miss raya.Tapi bile dah besar,apart from the 'raya shopping' there's not much kan.Dah tak rase excited macam dulu.Excited sebab dah managed to puasa,excited sebab dapat jumpa all the relatives yang duduk nun jauh and that's it.What's left is the fattening Raya foods which will cling ages to my waist.Lepas tu dah tak de ape untuk di excitedkan.Raya sekarang macam kosong.Am i taking my raya for granted?Perhaps.

And oh di hari yang mulia ini saya ingin menyusun jari memohon kemaafan di atas salah silap,terguris hati,ter-over perbuatan.

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.duit raya?

ps:semue orang datang puji saya dah kurus.mungkinkah ini akan kekal selepas raya?

pps:please don't ISAsized me.

ppps:jemput lah datang rumah.