gEt a liFE..sEriouSly..

hEy babe..

i know all bout u..

ps:im not stalking u okeh..

let's just say that u and me crossed path a lot..

a lot..

get a life will ya...?

pity u darl..

do u think dat being hot and cool online wud make things easier?

nO way~

people will be like 'uh,dats her?really?she's not what i expected.at all'

do u want dat thrown at ur face.?

please la..

u may have the skills and all but for what?

guess u want to live in the so called virtual life of urs eh..

get out and show ur stuff la..

ur real stuff..

ur a fake!plastic! 

creative+intuitive=new look

tadaaaaa....

major overhaulin'..

the new look of itsybitsybie..

and it's not called my box of choclates anymore..

why?

because there's no box of chocs at the header..

ehehe...

actually i cant manage the chocs with the new layout.

lol..

nice one rite?

simple and cute..

credit to pise for helping me choose this..

and to juwe who worked outside of his brain's capability for the new title..

kudos..

ps:i cant sleep...lullaby anyone...

::life::death::

I always say 'boringnye..' or 'bosannye idop'.A few times a week actually.Once,mama heard me.Guess what she said?'Agak-agak mati bosan tak?Ape la bie tak syukur dapat hidup.'Im speechless.And it got me thinking.Real hard.What if i die now?What if this so called subscription ends here?Right on this very moment.Subhanallah.

I know that im not going to do well there.Im nothing to him.I dont memorised the Quran.Apart from Yassin.I dont know whether my recitations are 'tajwidly' right.I am not sure all my amal ibadah are accepted or not.So basically i dont have anything.ANYTHING.How am i going to face HIM?The almighty.

We always pray to live a long life.For what?How many of us wants to live a long life for HIM.?1 out of 100 maybe?Or less.Perhaps we've been living in this world without considering how we are going to survive in the next.Perhaps we are so selfish to admit that we are wrong.Perhaps...

What are we trying to achieve in this life?Something better?What's better?A mansion?a Maybach?And what happens when we got all the so called better things?Dash to get something better?Is there anything above better?If there is,why do we called it better coz it's not.It should be the ultimate satisfaction.Tastes better than orgasme and ecstacy combined together.But we want more.The more we have the more we want.Why?Cause we are not satisfied with all his blessings.Because we are filled with jeaulosy and hatred.

So how to live a beautiful life without taking granted the life awaits.?Because am trying to though i dont know exactly how.

owh not so heaven anymore...

remember how i proud i am of kelantan?well can i get the rating down a bit?haha.Just remembered how annoying it'll get driving here.Seyesly.Jalan sempit.And pok cik motor sangat la kebal.Seboleh-boleh setengah-tengah jalan tu die nak amek.Ingat ni ape cik?Dahulukan la kereta,lori,trak,traktor gemuk-gemuk ni lalu.Ingatlah orang tersayang.Yang case pok cik ni acceptable lagi.Yang paling tak ley blah pasal pok mude ni ha.Ore kelate ni self esteem die tinggi.So memang biase la if jalan-jalan kene fewiit tu(koya).Tapi janganlah nak ngorat tengah-tengah jalan.Tengah bawak motor ni boley nak usha orang.Tumpukan perhatian ke atas jalan.So cik motor sekalian,next time ade orang hon belakang tu dat'll be me.Seyesly...

MAKE WAY FOR BIE....

ps:bukan get way la apik..

kelate=HEAVEN..

Im hooooommmeee!!!!




Owh daku sangat gumbira.Boleh makan banyak-banyak.Bangun lewat-lewat.Mandi lewat-lewat.Drive jauh-jauh.Bilik sepah-sepah.Makan banyak-banyak.Makan banyak-banyak.Ehe.Kelantan sangat best.Tho tak banyak hangout spots,takde cinema.Tapi we managed to find entertainment without all these.Where on earth could u find a chinese man who can't live a day witout budu?Hanya di kelate okeh.Tempat laen tak dop gini(slang kelate)

Tadi i went to tesco ngn mama.Hajat di hati nak beli broadband je.Tapi last-last tershopping lak.We bought 2 flats and 3 bags.I enjoyed it very much coz bukan selalu boleh shopping ngn mama.Mama really knows what she needs and she's goin to stick to it.She has a clear border between her needs and wants.Me on the other hand nak letak sume dalam group needs.Hahahaha.If i don't really need that thing,im still goin to find a reason why i must get it.*slapbutt*.Speaking of shopping,can somebody get me this???Please...I've been uber nice this year...

it's santa cruz by crocs..retail price:rm206

Hopefully the price'll go dwn by march..

ps:test driving my broadband...

swimming in my self-loahted misery?not anymore...

'An obviously failed attempt in sincerely asking for ur forgiveness'-Luqman zaharin

'Saket ko die?'-Rohayu che kob

'Hahahaha'-Solehah rahmat

Guess what.He texted me.He freaking texted me.For all these while.Why now?It has been 10 agonizing,heart wrenching months.And he just acting like we just broke up yesterday.For what man?U don't have to. It was so nice of u but no.I don't need ur apology.Apology accepted all along.Ur just making things harder for me with that apology.I should have received that apology long ago man.10 months?That's how long it takes for him to realised all his fault?I'm not saying that he entirely should be blamed for what happened between us.I've my share too.But i still remember every single words he said to me.Every single words.It hurts.Still.

There wasn't a day passed by without me thinking of him.I cried to sleep.I cried in my sleep.Seeing people holding hands made me sick.Living through everyday is freaking gruelling for me.And he knew it.U fucking knew it!Why now?Guess he enjoyed watching me suffered eh?But not anymore.Like luqman said 'it doesn't matters how hard u fall,what matters is how u stood strong after that'.And i did.10 months passed by and I'm going strong day by day without him.Yes there are days filled with the thoughts of him.But it'll just come and go.I've shared great times with him and it's impossible for me to pack all the memories and lived my life like i never knew him.I can't.Someday all the long forgetten memories will flood into my life and making things harder.So i'll just remember him as a chapter in my life.A chapter that taught me to love myself first before loving others.A chapter that taught me to be better.And i can't just simply tear and toss that chapter away cause i don't want my book of life has a blank page.

Best wishes for u megat..

This was written on 8th December 2008.

yes...im free...yes i am...

Finally im hitting home...yeah...feels sooooooo goood....dah lame tak balik..kelate i mish you....waaaahhh~now im in coffee bean..menghirup black forest yang tak best..Damn!Salah order.Percaturanku tak kene.Ehe.Should have wore my specs.

Lots had happened for the past two weeks.My final?Should i say that cik mara will definitely not be happy with my results.Susah sangat.Emotionally and mentally draining.Hahahaha.Hiperbola berlaku di situ.And for the past two weeks i've been eating like pig.Maen sumbat je.And my excuse is 'takpe makan banyak.Nak exam makan kene cukup'.Argh...Life is so blissfully good...And for sure bile balek nanti makan tido makan tido je.Ops,i still owe luqman a couple of morning jogs.Uhh beliau sudah kurus..Bie bile lagi???Hehe..Tah la..I guess im comfortable as the way i am now..Alhamdulillah.Mase raye haji tu memang makan sepenuh hati.Sampai pening makan.Imagine that.

Gtg,see you in klate..Kelate,here i come....!!!yabedabedu...